Notesworthy 3 of 3: Without Honor or Truth, Corruption, False Histories, and Supplicant Propagandizing Media Strangleholds

I have greater insight into how much what I know, or what I am suppose to believe, has been manipulated.

When you begin to suspect everything you have been told, that anything you have been told might be lies, about God, your country's motivations, your political ideologies, merely lies to get you to think the way others have decided you should think, believe what others have decided you should believe, behave the way others have decided you should behave, make sacrifices for others benefits which are not people as a whole, but for a privileged few who control your or all societies, you can begin to think for yourself and come up with your own ideas of truth, though no other may ever be allowed to hear them, speak them, or believe them, which are untainted by the lies and political manipulations to get you to serve people without honor and without truth. Those who can and most certainly do prevent the public from ever hearing unauthorized versions of any truths. People who owe their positions of power only to their lies and their abilities to control what a society as a whole thinks by what they are allowed to know, read about, and think about. Public's with the ability to decide on their own, ideas and ideals, able to surmount their societies constant attempts to manipulate how they think, capable of truly thinking for themselves, those in power fear this more than anything, and their political survival depends on getting less powerful people to hate each other and fight amongst themselves. That keeps humanity from ever progressing to enrich human lives, honor, and self-respect, and themselves securely on top.

The real truth of what was behind it will come out in due course.

Real people dying, starving, forced by circumstances into economic slavery, prostitution, selling their organs or children, that is truth. Why the world must be that way, why we turn a blind eye to the fact that these things happen only because of the way the world is structured which hypocritically says "oh these things are terrible", those are all interpretations often having no truth. Change to keep all such things from occurring is always at hand and only kept back by all those with power telling us how much they hate such things, but what can be done? And all their cures, privatizing their peoples resources, selling them water and food where before it was free or they could grow food themselves without having to pay anyone, the "cures" we prescribe for them always profits our companies and us and leaves them more screwed than they were before. Social Darwinism is alive and well and is now the real mantra of the world.

Governments now are routinely bribed to limit business sectors down to a few "competitors", only large corporations that charge hundreds to thousands of times the cost of production because competition is limited through regulations, licenses, and other means so that only the wealthiest can enter and sustain the markets. All others must get bought up, bought off, or shut out by obvious attempts to drive less deep-pocketed competitors out of business. Anti-trust laws are a joke. Governments cozy up to those who break such monopoly and price-fixing laws and are on their payroll as much as the police and judges are on "other" payrolls in the former Soviet Union. The little game of getting rewarded after or in-between government positions (with exorbitant salaries) fools only those who don't give a shit about how their corruption and favoritism-for-sale isn't corruption at all because they write the laws to exempt it and themselves. Uncorrupt high elected officials in the US are becoming non-existent. The high paying jobs after leaving office, sweetheart deals, are just too easy and the public too clueless to know how to demand they stop. And the press too much a player in the game to make much of a fuss over it. They are well rewarded not to, and in turn reward the politicians back. They all share the same bed.

If you know what you write will inevitably be erased or purged from others view, that to me is ammunition to make it so good and so important, that it shows absolutely clearly and without any doubt that those who would do such things without thinking about it and without shame to be what they really are, the spiritual heirs of the book-burning Nazis, and the fathers of future firemen everywhere. Their profession is old and future prospects growing every day, because of what they do. It is a circular loop and getting wider. 

Every day I wake up is like what each new individual goes through. I inherit a past to live up to or try to influence or reposition its legacy or direction. I am defined by that past yet I am what is supposed to build upon that past and reinterpret it into the future. I am that past yet I am not that past, more than a sum of it, more than a continuation of it. I am something new determined to make that past and any future it may be up until now seemingly headed toward in a sense have to revolve around and make sense to, and contend with, whoever and however I am now. It may pass by me unaltered or may have to redirect itself completely. However it may or may not go, it has to get by me first.

If you knew for a fact that you had a real opportunity to improve or influence things to make many peoples' lives better, and did not follow through, could you still look at yourself in the mirror? The more I began to know about it, the more parts I could remember as if they had already occurred, mostly accurate it seems, the more I was committed to that course of action, bound to that future potential state of things wholly because of perceiving it. Staying where I could have enjoyed myself without that knowledge became increasingly impossible until there was simply no other way any future for me could possibly have happen, making the preconceived and known aspects of everything which had yet to occur make sense and begin to validate itself. Because now I have lost that ability, (I) struggle with the question, was it all for nothing? This is no different than what everyone goes through at various points in their lives. Yes, it was important on one hand. Yes, it was all for nothing on the other hand and will eventually in the end be found to amount to nothing, whether that pointlessness comes tomorrow, next year, or in the next millennium. It was simply something to do, something worth doing at the time, and in the end that is all we get to pacify us.
Nothing keeps human philosophy, science, politics, and economics in the dark ages more than the boundaries of what questions or methods of inquiries goes against current social organizations accepted norms or "common sense", religious roadblocks of reasoning and all other social constraints that say, "Stop right there mister, it may or may not lead to truth or a better understanding of nature or the universe, but we who control society now don't want you to look in that direction, no matter what might be down there." Popularity over truth, palatability over reasoning.

More than likely the global geopolitical model will change often over the next 500 years should humanity in any form of the word survive. Sometimes to more economically just models, sometimes to ones even more socially Darwinistic because more openly (less hypocritically) committed to injustice than the one today. To takes stands for and against these is fine and necessary to some degree, but some like me must remind people they (the global political/socio-economic models) are only what can be achieved by what most people can imagine and aspire to, balanced against what the most powerful are able to take, for they will always be willing to take more than they need.

Sweden seems interesting to me because of the supposed greater social equality. To think you can do away with poverty and still have a functioning society may be easier to do on a small scale, simply a city of Rome surrounded by slavery elsewhere, but the idea that the world can and should function one day without the poverty and misery our current economic models (which), when we admit it, (know they) depend upon, that ought to be worked for rather than despised or sabotaged at every turn, especially since that improved equality between rich and poor (nations) is what rich nations say they want to achieve, while pursuing policies always destined to concentrate wealth in poorer countries into fewer parties hands.

That I, in the end, limited what I said to what I thought others ought to know or believe to be truth makes me as bad as governments and religions, sitting high upon a hill deciding what others should think of or believe. I at least did so without any self-interest or aims of my own, while more organized groups really do so for the benefit of their own members, no matter what bullshit about the good of Mankind they feed to others or choose to eat themselves. It is natural when you know a lot, see what others don't, have that wider perspective, to only try to tell people what you think they ought to know about, will keep them from hurting themselves or others, and in the end will make them happier to have lived. In some instances when it does not profit or benefit you or others, withholding something from them you know would push them further than they are ready to go, would only confuse them, and do no good, it is not as wrong as when you or someone benefits from withholding it. Then, you can never be sure of the motivations. In the end, each's own ignorance is partly by choice as much as it is by circumstance and timing. Make happiness come alive. All who kill happiness in anyone harm all life, including their own.

Through a paradoxical view of what would or must happen, I was forced to throw out literally everything I knew about the future and the past, and start over again completely from scratch. As Inventor said better, (At the end of Section 4.1 of 2D 3D 4D 5D Thinking Made Simple, there was a good bit about how both your understanding and misconceptions arise together and what you think about something limits your ability to understand how what you know keeps you from learning what you don't know) that is where all reasoning must take you as often as possible. Going back to square one, routinely, incessantly, and without end is the only way to get a true and valid perspective on anything. People who think that the further you travel in your premises, the more you advance, they are fools. Anything you might ever wish to or hope to learn about anything, you are always just a heartbeat away from figuring out, and the path to get there inevitably crosses that point of where you must assume nothing before getting there. Whatever path you take must keep looping back, so plan wherever you hope to go, you must repeatedly pass through where your journey's to find the truth began, from square one, assuming nothing, suspecting anything, and anticipating every possibility ever to need to go to eventually. 

I agree with most concerned that my time has not come yet, but without this it many not have a chance to come at all.

As I wrote on the title page of Polsci.com (under the Pentacle paragraph), going to Hawaii I saw the future as all black, nothingness. I swore no matter what happened, no matter how much went wrong in the world, no matter how many were suffering, nothing would ever again cause me to want to get involved or leave. That is what everybody seemed to want, stay there, think of no one but myself, make money selling software, that is what society expects people to want to do. The opposite (my doings) may rub everyone the wrong way, but how can it be worse that being rewarded (or thought better) at having turned my back on the rest of the world, yet having my government pleased even if I were doing literally nothing good for anyone but generating higher revenues? I saw more (of?) a higher opportunity to change things, I went for it, and the pieces of how it all fitted together I doubt anyone will see for some time to come.

If I were to achieve the best possible goal, every normal person anywhere in the world being smarter and having more accurate knowledge than myself in less than 40 years, not only would authoritarian governments become impossible to manage, but all the political technologies and institutional devices and structures designed to prevent the majorities in countries to have greater influence over their governments policies than its wealthiest elites who now treat their government's representatives like lapdogs, these structures to prevent true democracy from appearing would constantly be exposed, districting, divisiveness, electronic voting fraud, loss of exit polling and parallel official counts, anything which prevents the most supporters from having the greatest representation, the politically charged and corrupted courts, they would not find fertile soil to grow. The world system as always is founded on and revolves around (and depends on) ignorance.

The only thing that will ensure that any peoples survive the next century is a world based on inviolable international law and not which country or groups of countries have the most or worst weapons of mass destruction.

Always about the data

Advancing on a collision course with possibly the most powerful and corrupt administration ever, with what its Senators called the President's nearly unlimited means at his disposal to manufacture reality as he sees fit, hold any US citizen "protected" by the Constitution or any foreigner in prison without trial or even charges indefinitely for life on his say so alone, able to intimidate any press to recant any story no matter how factual (true) under guise of "national security" (Newsweek) and against this unrestrained mass-production machine of limitless lies capable of being tailored instantly to fit any case of anything I might say, all I have to cling to is truth even I can be made to recant, and even be made to cease to believe, with the sole assurance that once spoken and recorded, if humanity survives, someone someday must eventually be able to verify that it was true.

Don't ask what we do, we do it for you.

Rice (again), everything that's bad in terrorism that happened until now happened because you did not let us torture enough people [2014 Note: Obama just began using the same line of "reasoning" to justify total spying on everyone all the time without necessarily suspicion or a warrant]. Anything bad that happens from now on is your fault just because you are preventing us from torturing enough people without charges or trials and it will be on your head. However many you allow us to torture, we will still be able to say these bad things happened only because you weighed us down and kept us from torturing and killing even more without any legal processes. A Gini index of torture that can never be satisfied.

Torture - nothing going to happen that you would like or wish to be a part of, events wholly external to yourself and (your) wishes. You (then) live solely at the whim and desire of others, taking your will to live and everything with it (that follows from it) from you.

Articles like fireworks waiting to use the launch pad

The subversion, marginalization, and (increasing) impotence of elected legislatures. The "business first" models of America, Russia, and China. How to make your people do what you want against their own wishes. Can be as simple as blackmail or as complex as MKULTRA style brainwashing. But since that is most valuable (knowledge or ability, it cannot be wiped out or forgotten and is traded (between countries and even more powerful organizations than ANY country) as the most valuable of currencies.

I see my relationship with my country's government, or parts thereof, at the moment like a farmer's son wanting to go off and be a different occupation than is in the farmer's ideas of what he had in mind and measured his expectations by. It is simply a matter of being able for the son to make the father understand being a whatever is something more important and better in the long run for both, than being what was expected when raised. (Times change, always take notice where you are is not where you thought you would be and never can be.) The debt and sense of obligation is the same, but the need to repay it in ones own manner of choosing by ones own standards can try the bonds which are subjective and never understood until and unless tested.

One's strength should not be judged by the power of ones (self or) allies, but of ones potential enemies. They forge you to be stronger, sometimes at the expense of being (becoming something) better. That is too high a price for any with integrity to pay. Integrity is almost a forgotten concept to those who revel and are prideful of their strength. Those who see the survival of anything as paramount, they forget it is most always at the expense of being willing to change into something even better. That is the blindness which accompanies power and the ability to control what would otherwise encourage you to evolve into something better and more just, and hold onto an increasingly unmanageable present sinking ever lower to hold it together. (That is) the eternal dilemma which the world must soon look squarely in the eye and face up to.

Of any lead or highly ranked (top of the) news stories by major (news) services, I find only 20% or so of my interest is motivated by the "facts" presented, even when I believe them to have been attempted to be put forward without biases and prejudices, difficult to do and too rarely now (unslanted news) even attempted. At least twice as much or 40% of my interest is what effect this story will have on peoples' attitudes, actions, and beliefs as that is at least twice as important as the "news" itself. Equally as important as that, say the other 40% remaining of my interest is how and why that story was chosen to be considered of major or more emphasis than the thousands of other things equally as important that will be covered less or, as with most, not at all. What is it editorially, financially, politically, sociologically, or psychologically that says this is what people will think is important or want to be told about, or what those with the power to decide such things will decide to be placed in front of peoples' eyes to read, to hear about or to see. Those who see things in the news (hierarchy) in this manner can learn from it. Those who follow it (the news) without putting most of their attention on its effects on them and others, and who, how, or why it has been decided that that information should be told to many to inevitably wish to produce an effect by the telling, (those who) simply react to the news, they are simply sheep being lead around wherever anyone with the power to influence what the media decides to lead with or considers of more importance, wishes to take them.

Those with the power to have people accused of things no matter their innocence, no matter sometimes the amount or veracity of evidence, these are the groups beginning to assert control all over the world, especially in the US and Russia. Mostly they are influenced by intelligence and/or criminal organizations. Where evidence is unchallengeable or the police powerless to look into how it got there, where the accusation or pretrial incarceration alone will destroy a person's life, those with the power to have someone charged with something effectively can blackmail almost anyone and not only have them by the balls, but increasingly the whole of society as well.

Bribing for peace- It is ludicrous for appointees of corrupted governments in the pocket of weapons industries to be the ones turned to to negotiate peace deals. On one hand, it makes sense because if they are not appeased, they can and will dump tons more weapons into the arena on loan to make peace impossible. It is almost as if they ought to (be seen as businessmen and) put figures on the table, this is how much we stand to gain by the continued escalation of your conflict in legal arms sales, what our companies stand to gain by governments favorable to us, if you can match or beat this price, we will let you have peace for awhile and concentrate our sales efforts in a different region while you rebuild your economies for awhile and can afford our more pricy but less likely to be used higher cost high-tech weapons.

With our culture via our one-upmanship, my-party-penis-is-bigger-than-yours war-mongering politicians (Bush, Cheney, Hillary, Lieberman) and "free press" inoculating and slow-warming the public to ideas like pre-emptive wars because "we have reason to think some other country might attack another country someday" justifying us attacking and invading them today (Iraq, Iran) threatening first use of Nuclear Weapons (France) to *deter* terrorist attacks, secret kidnappings and torture of people we don't have enough evidence against to even justify charging them with anything, keeping people imprisoned for life without trial, and forbidding our "free press" from even releasing their names, is it any wonder the US and West are beginning to fulfill others opinions of us being or acting like a "Great Satan"? That we have lost all compass to be able to see our effect on the world is anything but good at the moment, and all to protect or acquire assets we wish to keep or get which happen to be (unfortunately for them) located in other countries as being a "necessary" evil for our economies and way of life, no matter if it sets the whole world on fire over there for our benefit over here. That is Jesus in action of course.

To say we have an image problem at the moment is an understatement. To say we have a crisis of morality, leadership, and a supplicant unquestioning and increasingly propagandizing all-dominating corporate press, all willing to steer us down the lowest of roads if the money is great enough, and go on TV stating the worst of lies to line their pockets or spike their approval ratings, but hey, that is the price of wealth and power, right?

The most important thing for you to be today is to be not what you were yesterday. The most important thing for you to do or to realize today is what you could not do or realize yesterday. Remembering here is not there, now is not then, never you are what you were (or remember being), and what you remember can never be again. Going against that, holding the past, that is death. Working with it and using constant change is to live and accept being constantly a new person in a new place in new circumstances.

Sure we all theoretically prefer to have peace over more war, but only if peace is at least or more profitable than continued war, and it never is. The benefits of peace are spread out over many, benefiting all equally. War concentrates the benefits into the hands of the few, the whole point of profit, and the many who lose, lose all, their lives, their lands, their valuables, which drives up the potential spoils and value of the possessions of those who remain untouched, their assets appreciating to buy or steal from those recent, and soon to be, dead.

The media stranglehold likely to get us all killed, the public debate in America, when existent at all which now even this is not, is which party's “different” “Bold Ideas” to get us out of the world crippling downward spiraling situation, with machine-like unthinking polls and pundits alike whose thinking processes are limited to left, right, and now the “neither left nor right” neo-con neo-fascist “majority” ideology, which of these ideologies' jockeys, these cookie-cutter prepackaged types of ideological state-approved islands of thinking embodied in parrot talking suits, out of whom which one of them should try or can bring about a stable world in light of constantly escalating weapons of mass destruction, both present ones and damningly new types to come? The blindness and myopicness of it all is both frightening and hilarious at the absurdity of it all. Cheers.

Threatening someone with killing them is not a serious threat to them if they want to die, or like me went through so many changes so quickly they find it hard to say what life is anymore, yet fortunately no one has a definitive answer on that here to say that lacking makes me deficient. What I can say is that life seems to want to keep me around awhile longer and though (I keep)learning much about others and how they think everyday, they are really far too similar to each other to get excited about them anymore.

Media (makes people) stupid (on purpose, this much disinformation and banality in the face of unprecedented serious world crisises cannot be accidental. Please tell me which celebrity is screwing which other one who used to be screwing someone else. This is “news”. The wars are optional and a downer.)

Puff them up to shoot them down – how (media) organizations build up the value of their critics to then embarrass and undermine their causes by the messengers they either put in place completely or helped (them) behind the scenes to have a voice to begin with.

The more a political party says it stands for life, the more people it can kill. The more it says it stands for democracy and promoting it and enhancing it, the freer it is to erode it and consolidate power to itself. The more it says it stands for liberty and less government, the more it can pass draconian laws, monitor what you say, do, who you associate with, and take away whatever civic rights you might have had, publicly admitting to it, or behind your back you never know about until they want something from you. The only thing that keeps the government's lines, the rhetoric, in any relation whatsoever to the truth of what is happening, is the Press, the Media, and they have now lost all compass and credibility. Truth, journalistic truth, now belongs to the highest bidder, and the liars, the most hypocritical, will always have the most money and the most power without a referee. The media is no longer a referee. It writes whatever it is asked to write and accepts payoffs, knuckles under to corporate or political pressure, and puts out one-sided government press releases as “news”, and shamelessly distorts, swift-boats (the modern equivalent of tar and feathering) anyone who dares to interrupt the feeding frenzy at the trough of money and power. Journalism is now creating false histories purposely.

Most politicians, cultures, societies, cannot help but view a little double-think as a good thing. Do as we say, not as we do. A little magical suspension of disbelief to keep the population happy and not likely to ask for more rights or less oppression. But too much of a good thing, people too well-trained in their “thinking” which defies logic and riddled with self-contradictions, and the whole of society can become delusional, that no problems exist if they are not acknowledged as such. America every day now sets a new record on how far that can go without coming apart at the seams. Wait long enough and not only will they shoot anyone who tries to sound a wake-up call, they would rip him or her to shreds like a pack of wolves on a defenseless prey.

Modern times and alternative media- If you read the truth, you have been compromised, tainted, and are suspect. If you speak the truth, you become an agitator and potential criminal propagandist. If you teach the truth, you are a seditious underminer of the legitimate government if it insists lies are truth.

For better or for worse people learn how to behave from mimicking those around them. I say for worse because much depends on how lucky you are with those around you to imitate and shape your identity. Most cultures, not the least of which my own, are pretty barbaric in what they optimistically call a “culture” and their thought processes are so riddled with inconsistencies and hypocrisy that it is a stretch to refer to it as “thinking” at all.

Most people are controllable because somewhere down deep they are motivated by a desire to survive, to have nice or pleasant things happen to them at some point in the future, and to avoid or minimize the risk of very very bad things happening to them which they are afraid of. None of that means anything to me anymore, less than most before and non-existent now. The only thing I that motivates me is to expose the truth before I die, and the consequences of that are completely insignificant to my feelings one way or another. Machine-like, yes, but in a good way and for a good reason. The lies now are pervasive and completely self-destructive. Only letting the truth out in a regulated but massive way which can begin to enable people to see what they are doing and have done blindly and maliciously through their unwatched and lawless governments transgressions of all its own legal principles, precedents, and morality, that is the only thing I live for and the sole motivation. All else is merely the road from here to there.

The media purposely reduces people to caricatures they create and control, and if they stand against the media, or the party (or business interests) they represent, their caricatures take the form of propaganda monsters to rally the public to destroy them on their behalf.

Because I tried I sort of failed and also did not. The only way to really fail is not to try. The effects of attempt (at using the political asylum to get the government's attention and prevent worse mistakes) are beyond my understanding at the moment and hopefully are not as fruitless as things seem today. The future seems more fluid and changeable, and that is good, as events begin to take a new shape.
A nation that does not know its own true past or its past from many different valid points of view is dangerous and imperiled. A nation that does not know this of its present is psychotic, delusional, schizophrenic, and ultimately lost riding upon luck and without either shame nor reason.

The only things fated are those to which we relinquish our control over to others or to previous (past) versions or notions of ourselves, our convictions and purposes. When comfortable enough, hungry enough or desperate enough, to take the helm for a moment and own up to it, all else must deal with that, if not defer.

If you wait for the world to get better, you (almost?) assure it never will. You either push it in the direction that you think it should be going in or watch while others choose their own directions, to usually their own personal advantages.

That it should be any other way (US losing sight year by year)

2nd church (commission), (who must) ask for    [Insert from 2009: "The ideal way for this to play out, I acknowledged, was for those in a position to approve such things, ideally those who carried them out, to be the ones to call for an inquiry. In my notes at the time I put it as “2nd Church- ask for”. Later I expanded that a bit because if I abbreviate something a bit too much, I can forget what it was supposed to mean. More fully to remember it later, it became “2nd Church (Commission, who should) ask for”. I chose at the time to believe, as many I think did, that given the chance those who did the worst most illegal things under the Bush Administration, would when the time came, be willing to go public themselves. To think otherwise might have been more accurate, but who would wish to more accurate at the expense of giving people the benefit of the doubt to be so less human as to feel no guilt, no remorse, and be content not to come forward if given the chance, but to instead to choose to keep such things buried forever?" - 'More on Obama's reducing Torture to merely bad judgment, certainly not a crime,' 5/27/2009, TruthRevival.org]

One of the most simplistic things about how people think is that you can have truth over here on one hand, and what you believe over here on the other, that they are not connected and are autonomous. Not to say they are the same thing, quite often opposed, but never not inter-dependent and in a sense creating each other by opposition or by cooperation. It simply requires a greater complexity of thought than most would wish to consider, and many are not only so not disposed, their minds are not taught the required building block concepts. Zen (Buddhism) and some other (methods of thinking) can lay a basic foundation, but some types of understanding truth quite literally requires compartmentalizing all you know and think of, all you may yet, and interact with truth as something not apart from yourself or your life, but merely one interpretation on realities that go beyond existences and one set of histories, yet are reflected in them smooshed down as a 3D world is to a lake reflection or a mirror. .

Amazing those who defend America's reputation blindly like a championship trophy that came about in a rigged tournament rather than try to make it (that great reputation) true today [2014 added: by doing good things and not doing the horrible things, eroding the concept of human rights, advancing the elimination of habeas corpus, advancing assassination by presidential fiat, the rehabilitation of torture, the rehabilitation of Stazi-like spying on citizens to make meaningful dissent and change impossible, invading and occupying or overthrowing countries without evidence and/or based on suspicions of bad intent without provable foundations, etc]. Essence of the War Against the Truth. Torture, humiliate, degrade, deprive.

Corporations as private governments with private police forces and private intelligence services and now private armies if/when necessary. The government ones are merely training ground for more lucrative “private” ones which require (the) influence of it (government) to keep these private ones legal and in control (the means of which by) through “after government (service)” job offers. What was considered “decentralization” (now instead) through growth and mergers has led to mini-economic dictatorships (within nations borders) with their own laws, ability to write nations laws, and above all else, to keep every nation, especially the “most powerful one”, crippled from developing an economic plan of international scope to regulate them. Eventually all “legitimate” governments risk obsolescence as they are too much grounded to have to operate in the open. When (corporate “governments” or entities) are linked to intelligence agencies, they truly are untouchable and everything they do is unquestionable and every criminal act of business, trafficking, or murder is “legal.”
 

Excerpts from Notes 4, 5, 6, 2005-2007

    Ten years ago this week, (January 2004), I started this collection of notes which I am posting here, mostly in its entirety. It began shortly after arriving in Estonia to go to college which was something tacked on at the last minute to what was supposed to have been, at least in the beginning, a two week trip around Europe followed by what would have been an unsuccessful political asylum attempt in France in 2003.

    Most of these events above have been mentioned before here at TruthRevival.org, in the blog about what led up to the notes (5dnotes.blogspot.com), and at . But given this is the interesting 10th year anniversary, I thought it was a good time to put all of the notes up somewhere with an introduction.

    The blog mentioned above was started about 4 years ago in 2009 to put the events which created the notes into perspective. Still years later it only covers a few months leading up to them, but it covers that period well. However when it became clear that it would be hard to give any perspective on the notes without mentioning the political asylum attempts which framed them, and more than a little, which created them, I needed to think carefully over where to go with the retrospective, and how to proceed with it.

    I eventually decided that here at TruthRevival.org was the place to post the actual notes, starting with the ones 10 years ago this week, which I had previously referred to as the "Notes Part 2." The "Part 1" notes were written previously in Lithuania, were less about politics and more complicated as to why I was writing them, and are generally far less readable. As I put in the 5D notes blog in its most recent posts, those earlier notes were written mostly in a shorthand readable to no one but myself and mostly had to do with ideas about geometry, dimensions, and time. Very little of the Lithuania notes would be relevant to most people even if I were to explain them well.

    With these notes, they were far less cryptic and I eventually went back over the notes written previously in "Part 1" about geometry, dimensions, and time and expanded upon many of them more in the later notes. Much less of these later notes is in what I called a type of shorthand which no one else could understand. But they continued to me to contain the ideas of things I wanted to write about and expand upon later. Also, as I said previously, a great deal of these notes dealt with my situation in regards to the then upcoming political asylum attempt. Many of them cannot be understood clearly in what they were about without putting them into that context. The excepts here above have many of the ones that often relate to that the best.

    When leaving Maui in September of 2003, the idea of going to back college was only a vague aspiration of something to do one day. Somewhere over the continental US on a direct flight from Kahului to Boston, I woke up having a dream I was going to college in Eastern Europe. I sat there thinking about how that could possibly work, in regards to what I had been previously intending on doing and found it an intriguing twist that could alter just about everything's context as well as the outcome. After thinking it over for a short while, by the time the plane landed I knew exactly what had to be done and in what order to make that happen. 4 months later, I began these notes in that hotel room just before my first semester began.

    Knowing how to make that happen and expecting it to be done are two different things. Since it was so improbable, I never really had to commit to it until much later, while it was already ongoing. Often, I was more prepared for the alternative which I had set out to do, simply return to France, and try to get political asylum knowing that it would fail. But also to be using that to be able to write about what happened to cause that, and things relating to the current situations pertaining to that, and about the US administration 's policies which pertained to both, and the perilous dangers in those policies and directions. I eventually did get to write a similar statement when trying to obtain political asylum in Sweden reposted here at TruthRevival.org over 6 years ago, called the Radioactive Cereal Principle. That was different than what I intended to write in some content but similar in many ways to what began it all, what I had set out to do.

    When writing in Sweden during the political asylum process, I wrote that I knew what I was now writing in RCP would probably never be seriously read or considered, or least never acknowledged (and it never has been all these years later, though it probably was read by a few and maybe had limited effects). But I also wrote that at least my notes were out there in a way which could not be easily erased even if what I was writing then at that time was an exercise in futility.

    Mixed in with the notes were many many things that went well beyond anything I could have written about or included in a single statement. Since I had delayed the political asylum attempt for years knowing that every single day I delayed it meant that it was more and more likely to not happen, slowly the notes as a whole became something to "make up" for it, if that end never came or was stopped. Call it an alternate discourse mixed in with many other things so as to go mostly unnoticed.

    Whether anyone noticed what was in the notes which I am choosing to highlight here or not, or even cared, it went on so long and so many agencies were involved in monitoring me, some beyond being silenced, I figured at least the notes had a chance to be read more than any single paper or statement would ever have been, seeing as it would inevitably be buried after that (given what its contents were to be.)

Why, one might think, would I think what I wrote might have been buried?  Those people would probably know nothing of what actually I did write. What was written was extreme enough in what I thought to be of importance and relevance to take years to set it up as to when and how to put it out there, and under what circumstances. And since that was never any more likely to happen than ending up going to college with less than 4 months to prepare, the notes became more and more about what I thought I would never get to write about, than notes of things which I would or might had written about when the time came.

The present increasingly became all that mattered to me, and that feeling or concept is mentioned over and over in the notes as well. Thus, instead of being just "notes to myself," after this they became more fully developed to be intelligible to others in case the intended end or conclusion I set out for was never reached.

As I said previously, many of the notes were of things I wanted to write about in that application, and many were notes of things going on about the process I found myself in. That first one of these notes which began them 10 years ago this week could not have been more about the situation I found myself in. It pretty much could have been started with "What the hell have I gotten myself into? This was supposed to take 2 weeks and been over already, one way or another, months ago. And its not like there is any easy way out of this either! Am I purposely trying to fail? Am I purposely constantly getting myself in deeper and deeper ever more over my head because I really want to fail?"

But in what I did write, though it alluded to all of that indirectly, I really tried to put a better spin on it. Yes, I did begin doing all that, not really with much or any time to compass whether it should get done, because it took so effort much to set up in just a few months that I really halfway did not think the Universe would ever call my bluff that it really would be ever happening at all. And what I wrote showed that doubts were beginning to creep in that maybe, as cool as this was to be happening, maybe it might not be the most ideal thing to be doing.

Wanting to do or have something that seems difficult or unrealistic to achieve can be a false want, or a wanting equivalent of a false hope. Should you one day find it achievable, within reach, or even to possess or achieve it, you may find it no longer desirable. You wanted it because to do so would be to achieve the near impossible, because it seemed out of reach, not necessarily because of anything about it itself. Such false wants can be thought of as excuses to fail. One might think if one attempts the impossible or severely unlikely and fails, the fault lies not within them or their abilities but in their choice of a desired goal. That may be the case from one point of view. Another valid way to see it is that to live is to do. It really does not matter, if each individual is given free choice, what they want to attempt to do with that freedom. That choice of goals would be their own and the path they choose is or would be in a sense who they are, for it is what they would desire to choose to create or how to define themselves with time and in time. For many what is easy to attain is not desirable. They must constantly be extending their reach, or forever seeking to define by doing just how long that reach is and where any limits if any, are to be found. It is like being in a room of unknown size and shape. It is only natural to keep trying to find walls, or ways to define the size and shape of the environment you find yourself within, always if time allows exploring it a little further each day. What is around which corner or behind each wall if you find any, and what purpose (do) they serve or what do they wall you off from finding. That is time, that is life, that is what we do, and because what we do is what we are or seem to become.

In that paragraph I had reasoned that yes, it did seem that by doing something so likely to fail that I perhaps was hoping to fail and then say, well what did anyone expect would have happened? And maybe even that I only wanted to attempt it because it seemed so unlikely, that that was why it was appealing, and not so much about anything else. Weighing these thoughts, I decided, without stating why or what I hoped I might achieve, on balance that didn’t matter. The only way to find out if something can be done or not is by attempting it. And if it something that ought to be done regardless of how likely it is to happen, the question just becomes, is it possible or not? Are you in a position to try or not? And will you? The rest is all bullshit.

I went back to that same question shortly thereafter in the notes and really did not have much of a different answer.

It takes a high degree of arrogance to attempt anything thought to be extremely difficult to impossible, and (to) succeed (in it). It must go way beyond the scale of confidence. One must also need something to balance that, an equal degree of modesty that it is not always about you, is not achieved ever by you alone and not part of the process, and that nothing ever done is really any less likely than anything else ever done, it is merely how we choose to see it and ourselves.

That helped settle it for me in my own head. It was something I was in a position to do, period. If I succeeded in what I set out to do, it would not have worked out without countless things I had absolutely no control over. And that nothing that happens really can have odds put on it accurately after the fact, since at that point, it is ridiculous to say it couldn’t have happened, or that it was unlikely to have happened, since it did. It was either possible or it wasn’t, therefore it is either possible or it isn’t. End of story.

I knew I needed to be over-confidant in extreme, knew that it was foolish to be that confidant, and more than a little worried that it probably would all blow up in my face, sooner rather than later. But by this point it was getting easier. 4 months out at this point, I was getting more and more confidant that, one way or another, something good might come of it, and I was becoming more confident in myself as I went along. Plus it was fun and at last I had a chance to actually do something instead of just thinking about doing something.

I have been excerpting these notes right along since they were written, but as I said in the previous post, there are themes which jump between seemingly disconnected paragraphs. They are often the same ideas expressed and evolving through quite starkly different examples sometimes. By reading any of them individually or out of order, one would often miss what they were about or what I was aiming for in trying out different ways of saying something. Just the single page example in the previous post here (Inhumanity's Open Road, Proverbs 14:31 Revisited, Death of Death of Truth, and WTF?, May 13th, 2013) showed that well, I thought.


Notesworthy 3 of 3

These were written from August 2005 to July 2007. Most were written in Sweden and on Maui.

U R here - minus cause effect (You ARE here minus cause and effect)

Circle spinning against circle rotating (view) around it in 2D and 3D. Ball spinning against ball rotating around it in 3D and 4D, its rotation around itselves, internal fulcrums as well, always opposite

Act/react, unity vs. discontinuity in 4D senses, consciousness

Even if you do and have done everything right until now, take comfort or caution that one way or another, there will always be another day for you to **ck it all up.

I know for a fact that my consciousness goes beyond just my life and includes more than one timeline of events. People have no knowledge of such things, perceive nothing but their own tiny histories, and call anything beyond their understanding non-existent. Their religions and sciences are myopic, self-centered, and hardly notable except for their abilities to inflict pain and suffering on each other. Be it on me or others, that is all I give them credit for knowing how to do.

From mouse in walls view which began the 5D notes to mice on satellites view. The Earth donut and ring.

Mathematical formulas as towers of speculation further from a ground and more cut off from each other. The branches of reasonings become more and more self-contained, open spaces begin to separate them and you must choose which tower you wish to climb which does not connect to others unless you go back down and then cross over to climb another. Bridge connections connect two towers to each other. Multi-dimensional theories turn the towers inside out and upside down at the same time and any "tower" theories can connect to others in ways one cannot yet imagine. The towers, the ways or spaces of how they are thought not to be connected become less absolute and more from a certain perspective at a certain time.

Humanity as a single entity, environment as a single entity, the Universe as a single entity, parts of it perceptually cut off from each other, interacting with each other blind to the connection. Experiences as connecting the dots, bringing together the pieces which are only separated by lack of memory and lack of perception, and only joined by the experience of current perception. Memories are insignificant unless they are under control to be reexperienced at will at any moment.

Coalescing, centralizing, more control in fewer hands, versus diffusing, decentralizing, more control by each individual over their lives, fewer laws, and fewer universal customs and beliefs. (All that is) part of motion as being the only reality. Nothing in the Universe is static and all of existence rates only as motion relative to something else. Physical first, relational as well. Change for always, sometimes better by your own views, sometimes worse, but never the same day to day, year to year. Nothing ever is what it was a second ago.

Inverting, reversing, the void.

I have greater insight into how much what I know, or what I am suppose to believe, has been manipulated.

Pushing through life (in a chosen direction without ever veering), held up by it (from where you originally choose to be), or interacting with it (creating new directions every moment not existing or possible before the interactions).

Ball against ball rotation while turning left and right.

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Any movement at all is sideways in space and time from any other point in space and time while moving through space and time itself.

Equatorial plotting of time on balls of 2D worlds (spinning against each other) makes points furthest away seem like points where the Universe spins around in time and all matter must pass through, all must coming from or going to (can't read it, basically, when going sideways) going around the curvature to the same spot in space and (or?) time, would seemingly require passing through the beginning or end of time (from the perspective of that which is at where began). (From each new position in space and time, the beginning and end of time seem at other points away from new position).

Equatorial time cone plotting (on spinning balls representing 3D worlds plus time (omitted from 2D, 3D, 4D, mapping 4D worlds on spinning balls)), with shading darker closer to the equator signifying greater depth or width of time cone at that point where object plotted is never moves from that point and can be the longest in its timespan, or straight across its time cone viewed head on. Since the V (is) spread across the surface of the globe away from the equator marking the thinning regions of where it could be with thinning colors marking the parts of the time cone (with less depth) from a head on view. (Same idea as Universe Inc's Paradoxes and Probability Waves where an object can be longest (thicker in probability) at center but shown even flatter than a time cone is, and in color.)

Overlapping chains of causality away from any two points in space and time, (needing to be conceived as) cascading into (yet another) extra dimension fuller or new cone or globe (to account for the) of inter-effects and inter-causation's.

In some of your potential realities, I will die tomorrow or in the next hour, minute, etc. In some of my potential realities, you will. In the ones which neither happens, a new common reality forms of the interaction of separate potentials. It is not that neither deaths actually occurred, just not from that common perspective. Everything is always dead from another point of view at the same moment in time it is alive from a different point of view.

We are all slaves to biology and circumstance, what we are capable of doing physically at the moment, what we are capable of mentally at the moment to think about or discover, and what thoughts may come our way to reject or accept to act upon or believe, and whatever circumstances others create for the context of those abilities to interact within. Suppressing abilities, suppressing knowledge, not doing all we are capable of is real choice since doing more than we are capable of is never a possibility, the real limits of the environment. Keeping up with what we are capable of, finding out what that is or may be, getting suckered into playing the game as the cards are dealt to us as best we can has *NOTHING* to do with choice, but to be defined by those abilities top ends and simply pre-selected and defined by them. That is probably why I always tried to do so little when I knew I could do so much more than others. That was my way of trying to conquer or outsmart fate. Circumstances and outside factors or the Universe may have built the machine of my body or capabilities, but I took the keys back from fate and control whether to keep it garaged forever or wrap it around the nearest tree. That was the thinking behind it anyway. I just outlived my obstinance and eventually got bored enough to try to find out what it is good for or designed to do. That was a choice, but once you make that choice, to decide to never again hold back (I never say never though), to drive it as best you can according to its preset limitations inherent within the machine and environment, that choice will rob you of so many others. Then you are under control of what you are capable of doing or knowing. Suppressing those abilities was being me, how I chose to define myself over and above my capabilities, was my choice. The rest, not suppressing them, is more simply finding out what the machine of abilities, and circumstances to drive it on or over, the road, the Universe gave me the keys to, and that becomes fated and more than a little predestined for my taste, but life sucks and sometimes you forced to go along with life if you want to know what it really is.

I am a pattern, governments are patterns, churches are patterns, ideologies are patterns, all organizations, business and criminal or when two different things, are patterns. Races and ethnicities are patterns. Patterns exist to reproduce that pattern over new contexts and circumstances as best they can over time. They draw as many resources to themselves as they can get away with under current circumstances and then try to justify it to others and to themselves as best they can. As long as they try to keep the pattern alive and replicating itself, they and their actions, thoughts, existences themselves, are 100% predictable and practically preordained. Only when trying to fit that pattern into newer larger patterns where their own distinctiveness is not paramount, blends, and redefines by creating new and different patterns, only then do they know true growth and begin to be creative, and then become interesting. 


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Electrons are patterns of actions which no one really knows what they are, like light. We can describe them, interact with them, but we can't really define them. No one can see an atom, much less an electron. Patterns of predictable behavior only. If we do this, we can get electrons or light to do that. If it happens how we expect, we think we can know things which we cannot see or imagine, and can only describe mathematically without a clue to its actual form, or even if it has any. Form to things around us too are only defined and known by and when interacting with them. Parts of the Universe fit into a pattern, and that pattern defines itself as me at different periods in time. That pattern has predetermined events it can do and must do at periodic times to maintain a form. These events exist as themselves individually, and can also be seen as a pattern when viewing or choosing to view moments in time sequentially. Just as businesses are groups of people defining themselves as a company, and organization to provide them food or power at future moments of time, people too have their own building blocks (components as people are to companies) of (past) events and (future) possible potential events which come together from different sources to contribute to something called a life or a person which is merely something built out of that coming together to maintain some separate position over time. Without seeing electrons, we experience them. Without seeing the building blocks of time (externally or non-sequentially) of ourselves, we experience them. Events we connect together to remember can define ourselves by those memories and assumed potential events yet to occur (which we think or fear might occur which also defines our notions of ourselves and who each of us may be at any given point), seemingly yet to occur anyway because only by our and some others perspectives around us (at this point in time) have they yet to have occurred.

When you begin to suspect everything you have been told, that anything you have been told might be lies, about God, your country's motivations, your political ideologies, merely lies to get you to think the way others have decided you should think, believe what others have decided you should believe, behave the way others have decided you should behave, make sacrifices for others benefits which are not people as a whole, but for a privileged few who control your or all societies, you can begin to think for yourself and come up with your own ideas of truth, though no other may ever be allowed to hear them, speak them, or believe them, which are untainted by the lies and political manipulations to get you to serve people without honor and without truth. Those who can and most certainly do prevent the public from ever hearing unauthorized versions of any truths. People who owe their positions of power only to their lies and their abilities to control what a society as a whole thinks by what they are allowed to know, read about, and think about. Publics with the ability to decide on their own, ideas and ideals, able to surmount their societies constant attempts to manipulate how they think, capable of truly thinking for themselves, those in power fear this more than anything, and their political survival depends on getting less powerful people to hate each other and fight amongst themselves. That keeps humanity from ever progressing to enrich human lives, honor, and self-respect, and themselves securely on top. 

The real truth of what was behind it will come out in due course.

Real people dying, starving, forced by circumstances into economic slavery, prostitution, selling their organs or children, that is truth. Why the world must be that way, why we turn a blind eye to the fact that these things happen only because of the way the world is structured which hypocritically says "oh these things are terrible", those are all interpretations often having no truth. Change to keep all such things from occurring is always at hand and only kept back by all those with power telling us how much they hate such things, but what can be done? And all their cures, privatizing their peoples resources, selling them water and food where before it was free or they could grow food themselves without having to pay anyone, the "cures" we prescribe for them always profits our companies and us and leaves them more screwed than they were before. Social Darwinism is alive and well and is now the real mantra of the world.

Governments now are routinely bribed to limit business sectors down to a few "competitors", only large corporations that charge hundreds to thousands of times the cost of production because competition is limited through regulations, licenses, and other means so that only the wealthiest can enter and sustain the markets. All others must get bought up, bought off, or shut out by obvious attempts to drive less deep-pocketed competitors out of business. Anti-trust laws are a joke. Governments cozy up to those who break such monopoly and price-fixing laws and are on their payroll as much as the police and judges are on "other" payrolls in the former Soviet Union. The little game of getting rewarded after or in-between government positions (with exorbitant salaries) fools only those who don't give a shit about how their corruption and favoritism-for-sale isn't corruption at all because they write the laws to exempt it and themselves. Uncorrupt high elected officials in the US are becoming non-existent. The high paying jobs after leaving office, sweetheart deals, are just too easy and the public too clueless to know how to demand they stop. And the press too much a player in the game to make much of a fuss over it. They are well rewarded not to, and in turn reward the politicians back. They all share the same bed.

If you know what you write will inevitably be erased or purged from others view, that to me is ammunition to make it so good and so important, that it shows absolutely clearly and without any doubt that those who would do such things without thinking about it and without shame to be what they really are, the spiritual heirs of the book-burning Nazis, and the fathers of future firemen everywhere. Their profession is old and future prospects growing every day, because of what they do. It is a circular loop and getting wider.


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Future transparencies and U-bend - seeing points and states (in the) future further away from the present overlapping further away in the past, bending perception so that further away from you into the past is in the same direction as further away from you into the future like overhead projector transparencies overlapping each other (seeing through both simultaneously) and understanding the future is like adding a depth perception to be able to tell the overlapping transparencies apart from each other. (Also like combining a forward view and rearview mirror view at same time of events.) Seeing objects and events (seemingly) moving toward you in space and time (in sequential frames by comparisons of the past further away from your present) simultaneously with moving away from you in space and time in the same direction at once like turning a camera and seeing the away direction into the future replayed over the toward direction of the past as if 1-dimensional, that objects must move away in the same direction as they came and there is nothing that can go "by" you or "past" you without hitting or affecting you.

(drawings, straight line with two arrows below it showing camera turning, v or u shape with arrows on both, and two lines away from dot with arrows on the lines showing change of direction) 

Turning the future inside out in all 3 dimensions, not that it doesn't itself from another point of view you just can't visualize yet and within time.

Trying to create a bridge between 2 different times, states, and views of two different Universes (balls rotating against each other above, where balls represent all points in time of each, future the direction of the rotation away from where they meet) creates a new third Universe of the circular causality going back and forth between the two and paradoxical (effects seen from) outside the third but new rules within it. Like outside view always needed to encompass any sets of interactions between any groups of numbers, always a view outside it. (Parmenides views quite similar, I came across at right time to compare with my own recent ideas of balls of pre-existant points in time away from central points, to see how they are much the same view. Not all ancients were idiots but that doesn't mean they were smarter either. Same ideas always get recycled ahead and/or behind but more focused on or relevant to each's present circumstances.)

If you wish people or societies to be good, you must constantly reward and nurture their natural tendencies to want to do or be good. Time, events, and natural aging will force the biology and DNA to control their behavior, to think of themselves first and foremost, and often paramount. Goodness is a struggle to hold onto, not naivete, but innocent wide-eyed wonder and belief of a future that will and must always be better and better in the face of all that would divert it to apsire toward something lower than the sky (the heavens), how those in power will convince us how things must be, must remain that way because they are or were that way, and away from that higher level we need to constantly work toward and to keep our focus on, to reach the highest and best potentials of all humanity.

People by not paying attention have allowed themselves and their lives simply to become machines for the replication and maintenance of society the way it is and are told it must be, and will defend those programmed ideas (whatever they are or might be) as if they thought them up themselves. Assembly-line appliances.

Every day I wake up is like what each new individual goes through. I inherit a past to live up to or try to influence or reposition its legacy or direction. I am defined by that past yet I am what is supposed to build upon that past and reinterpret it into the future. I am that past yet I am not that past, more than a sum of it, more than a continuation of it. I am something new determined to make that past and any future it may be up until now seemingly headed toward in a sense have to revolve around and make sense to, and contend with, whoever and however I am now. It may pass by me unaltered or may have to redirect itself completely. However it may or may not go, it has to get by me first.

Reversing objects with same object, collapsing (all) space (in-)between. center out from both (at same time), 4D perspective.

Viewing negative spaces of environments in with the objects in them. water based (environment) and air-based (gaseous environments) life, gravity and pressure on surface of membrane, skin, seeing environment as alive with other objects in it all at once as a living thing, removing negative spaces of gas or liquid separating them conceptually that they move around within, connected as if they all were touching against each other.

Tunneling back (conceptually) from different futures to present, to see where the diverge and what events divert them.

Senders seem as government pub population attitude shifters (minglers before important elections or to incite overthrows), instigators to start uprisings in other countries, not teachers but gifted persuaders to stir others to your ideas.

"Intelligence" services motto - the only thing that should be on a publics mind is what we put there.


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After being reacquainted in what is now this future in regards to those thens, the philosophy of Parmenides which (I believe) I had not read before, yet an undeniable Parmendian streak is plain to see in many of my earliest writings to my most recent, and is key to how I now I interpret my and others perceptions, all events, thoughts, experiences, and feelings as pre-existent points on a ball, much higher circle or ball by my abilities in understanding hyperspheres and beyond, but as individual points away from a center seeming strung together by from the direction it spins in, how you turn it and how it turns in reaction to others it joins against. Simply increasing your momentum can force others to react to your spinning, but for some that is too easy to do and makes life too boring. The most obvious Parmenides-like verbatim is The Process, Beyond Thought, Mirror, Something about nothing, and For No one of the earliest, was influenced by the concept of nothingness as something, and existence, something and nothing, creating a whole between them both. The most stark later comparison is in Deconstructing the Universe's real starting point for explaining everything else in the Universe, Impossible to Not Exist,  Parmenides key idea verbatim, how once anything is in any timeline of any Universe, it is potentially existent in all (other points and times) and beyond these more inclusive potentials all of which *EQUALLY* exist,  nothing else can possibly exist. Addendum 4, Measure All Things Together, puts that concept front and center with corks of potential floating on a lesser limited plane of surface common experiences. All of the first three addendums state that in various degrees using time and experience (as examples), but Measure All Things Together really brought the strands together. As Parmenides would say, the goddess was certainly present when writing it. (You would have to read his On Nature to get the reference.)

If you knew for a fact that you had a real opportunity to improve or influence things to make many peoples' lives better, and did not follow through, could you still look at yourself in the mirror? The more I began to know about it, the more parts I could remember as if they had already occurred, mostly accurate it seems, the more I was committed to that course of action, bound to that future potential state of things wholly because of perceiving it. Staying where I could have enjoyed myself without that knowledge became increasingly impossible until there was simply no other way any future for me could possibly have happen, making the preconceived and known aspects of everything which had yet to occur make sense and begin to validate itself. Because now I have lost that ability, (I) struggle with the question, was it all for nothing? This is no different than what everyone goes through at various points in their lives. Yes, it was important on one hand. Yes, it was all for nothing on the other hand and will eventually in the end be found to amount to nothing, whether that pointlessness comes tomorrow, next year, or in the next millennium. It was simply something to do, something worth doing at the time, and in the end that is all we get to pacify us.

Addendum to the addendum which began the spin (of my life) into a new direction - "...beyond those and that around you, the rest of the Universe might not as well exist at all," all points in all directions away from you are bubble distances away from the center of where you are. In a curved environment all those bubbles converse on a central point. In an expanding closed-loop (loopback) universe, those points converge on a 4D spacial line. That line is analogous to your speed in movement through time, a perpendicular variant of it.

Trapped in and by time, yet every trap has its walls and borders. Finding them may not lead to an exit, but gives one a sense of knowing the boundaries of where one can and cannot go. (or can or cannot know.)

Nothing keeps human philosophy, science, politics, and economics in the dark ages more than the boundaries of what questions or methods of inquiries goes against current social organizations accepted norms or "common sense", religious roadblocks of reasoning and all other social constraints that say, "Stop right there mister, it may or may not lead to truth or a better understanding of nature or the universe, but we who control society now don't want you to look in that direction, no matter what might be down there." Popularity over truth, palatability over reasoning.

Seeing the same events from different angles in time (is) analogous to different angles in space, outside of context of linearity, slide ruler of potential into form across multiple times at once like space consists of multiple spaces (existing) at once.


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Basic Parmenides - that there is both an objective truth to events which causes things to be or seem to be which is the cause of perception, and that all points are equal (in relation to) this objective truth (it is always equally close at hand or an equal distance away from all other times and points in your life and others) like all points on the surface of a circle or sphere are equally away from a central point, always the same equal distance from a true perspective. The non-subjectivity and completeness of all parts, those seen and experienced and those not seen and experienced currently, are equally important for defining (the spherical) its overall shape, which cannot be completely spherical and whole if missing any of them. They are each part integral to (the shape of) the whole, and time is only experiencing them parts at a time, and consciousness, only experience perspectives or viewpoints at a time. The truth is not subjective, yet all we see, know, and experience always is *ONLY* subjective, false, limited, and must always be that way while in existence. When something happens or seems to happen, there is both an objective truth about what did occur, what actually happened, yet that truth is shattered into perceptions viewable to only different parts or perspectives at once, and while limiting oneself to only what you and even all others combined can see or know of that truth by yours and their perceptions, it will only ever at best approximate a shadow of that truth, never coming close to the completeness enough to discern its true shape or form, and for that reason all perceptions are false when compared to an overall overarching truth behind events we think we know, and being which we think we experience.

I was already writing about time balls before reading about Parmenides. That all points and experiences in a person's life are at equal points away from a center, and that experience, or what does occur from what seems not to occur, is like where a needle scratches the surface of a marble while spinning it (time) and turning it left and right (choice). All points it passes through, the events, all are pre-existent and equally existing away from a central point at once. That is really the only way to organize my perceptions of how what does and what does not occur are both equally real (in a greater sense) and viable and knowable. However, using more dimensions, more marbles, touching the same point or needle at once, their turnings combining and affecting the other possible movements and turnings of other of the other marbles all around the same point (to visualize this in 3D you have to be able to see through the "balls" as invisible and hologram-like passing through each other) and that central point where all their spinnings meet, that needle scratches them all the same way at the same time, though in different directions. That is the objective truth of what is occurring which is only the truth to all of them at that time and place only, and a second later, each's orientation of how they see events will never be the same again. Each moment later they are all spun in different directions, though all points each moves on to is no further away from each's own center of all their potential events in their own lives from their own points of view. This is (analogous) of a single consciousness fractured. Add one more dimension to this example and you can also combine all those individual centers away from their spherical surfaces touching a needle of common reality, with one more dimension to conceptually organize this example, you can also pull all of those centers together in the middle at once.

Of all the countries, Russia is in a position to go from relative worst to first in terms of public confidence in its fairness of its democracy and institutions, but it is unlikely to ever happen. Politics there like so many other places has devolved into how to keep those in power now in power, if not for perpetuity, for as long as they so desire. That is the yardstick they measure the success of their policies against. What is best for the people or nation is a secondary goal at best. It may not be as dangerous to the rest of the world as Bush's attempts to keep his party in power indefinitely, but Russia is in far worse shape to weather a perpetual forecast of greed followed with a flooding of corruption, and never a ray of hope or sunshine of how things will ever become any different any time soon. 

Everything needs its originating point. In a sense, curiosity becomes seen as one. As a youth, one does not know of things around oneself, and that makes one curious of such things. With age we gain a greater and lesser perspective upon this, both more and less at once. We step outside the experience of curiosity and become curious of why we are curious about things. It is more introspective and in a sense gaining more control over oneself or others, this attempt to step outside ones own motivation to want to know of what one does not know, experience what lies outside current or past experiences, yet it is more conceptualizations built on grounds further from what originates the questioning, the beginning point, the feeling of curiosity or wonder of being in an environment with things going on all around you which you are unaware of on one hand, but are aware that things are going on which you are unaware of them. If that is not enough, if that alone cannot fill your time or you become blase that in that, there is nothing of relevance to what you want to know can be found, you can begin to turn the camera on yourself, what you are or what to perceive and why you want to. That is useful but irrelevant to the fact the desire to perceive, experience, and know must come first or all else (one finds) becomes meaningless to you and has no value whatsoever. Societies can train people while growing up what to aspire to or what to want, but that desire and imagined relevance must exist within them or it does not exist at all to or in relevance to them. Once knowing how their desires can be and are selected for them to want, they can gain a control over their lives which societies rarely wish to give up. It is nice to imagine societies that would not care to manipulate what its citizens want, but I doubt any human society will ever reach that point, thus the need to be critical of all that you are expected to and think that you want, and even what ideas you come up with on your own, to be skeptical if they ever are really your own desires and come from within, or are merely other parts of what was decided or taught for you to want. The desire to know and to understand your world is instinctual, the desire to control and possess all you find in it, repeatability of experience, conformity to your wishes, this is learned and valuable only because others would make sure you did not survive without learning it and valuing it, or they would rob you blind and starve you out of existence as they did all cultures that aspired to put higher values in lieu of these.


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You are yourself only, or everything and everyone else. If you view time in its proper light, you are never not either.

Most people not only have ideas which are contradictory to each other, but whole spheres of types of thinking for different issues and problems that cannot mesh with each other if forced to confront them side by side. Control (by politicians or societies) is merely playing on these, which to bring to the fore on particular issues at particular times, how to frame the debate (by which contradictory mindset) so a given point of view or type of logic will be thought to apply so a given opinion will prevail. Not changing peoples' opinions outright, but a pattern shifting of the type of logic to use on that (issue) from one type of pattern to another since all peoples minds contain these co-existing strands of inconsistent types of logic and reasonings with each other.

What keeps me free from the ideological bents and dogma that permeates the political and economic debates now is that I can say with a straight face that people whose theories I (would) agree with most have not been born yet and won't be for some time to come. Whether you know much of them or not, it means leaving the past in the past and looking ahead to what needs to be the newer better past to set up that further perspective by. Perspective by the past is good but forever looking over your shoulder framing new issues with old frameworks and outlooks is not.

Directional increases and decreases of potential for desirable repeatable experiences or of a single occurrence of an event, one outcome of which is preferable.

Viewing possession of material things in terms of increased potential for repeated pleasurable interactions with that object, owning an expensive car vs. renting or stealing, status centered vs. actual potential for use.

Equal opportunity vs. first access - Throwing a ball to two people who equally want the experience of catching it. Throwing towards one increases the opportunity of that person actualizing that event over others. Throwing equally between (and height the same equal advantage), theoretically same chances for each if both equally ambidextrous. Then even if it (the line) equally is in the space between relative to your line of throw, if one is closer to you than the other, potential moves higher first in one person's favor, then in the others favor. Even then other factors could increase for the secondary catcher. If too quickly for the first to react, the second has more time to react where the first has more opportunity on one hand, but less actually ability for success than the second one who lacks the first access of the first, but (possibly) higher potential for catching. Then suppose the potential for the first person decreases the potential for the second because that decrease in disadvantage of the first over time does not necessarily translate into an increase in potential for the second. Of the first, it can deflect the course even by failing to catch it or obtain the result they want, from the path of the second by just the attempt of catching it, or on purpose. Boring and simple when talking about catching a ball, but can be applicable to attempts at fairness in business, right of first refusal, opportunities for employment, access to contracts, marriage, etc. Mathematical inverses of potential for one individuals actualization or even non-actualization always affecting the increasing or decreasing the potential of others for achieving or repeating that same event at a later time. Interesting.

Viewing all things in regards for types of potential interactions leading to pleasurable occurrences and/or memories.

Combining above two examples (car (owning vs. renting, status of owning above renting in preventing others from using it even if one must work so many hours to keep it, he/she rarely gets to drive it themselves) and ball). Say neither can keep the ball. All one gets is the experience at a point over the other. Fairness can be thought, all each gets a turn to have the ball, but still fundamental crux that one succeeds at the time both wish to. Say later is not good enough for both, or (being) second is considered less prestigious, or that time may not allow for both, potential decreases over time, or that the one who gets the ball first has the opportunity to destroy the ball so the second cannot get a turn catching it, and opportunity the second does not have in relation to the first. All possible variances of potential of may types of occurrences (which are) more interesting than catching a ball but all relate to the potentials of the first affecting potentials of a second when in regards to sequence and time.

"Knowledge" equals depth of alternative viewpoints one can draw upon at any given time for more perspectives upon any relevant example or situation at hand to experience the experience of understanding or (seeming to) give one greater control over the experience or situation.

Seeing more potential perspectives than others can (be) by historical reminisces or creative thought. Intuition can be infinite though some creativity needed to reframe historical references to be seen as pertinent.

Everyday I exist which I am able to claim or first use some ideas in relevance to other examples and perspectives, I only increase my potential achievements in relevance to (a decrease) in others potentials if they would come across those ideas in reference to my life. It is not that anyone cannot make such ideas known (to themselves) spontaneously at any time themselves, however we structure organize time and experience to put those words in the mouths of some over others. Yet those ideas and experiences must exist within others for one to bring about the experience of sharing knowledge and perspective. It is only (to be) agreed (or determined) on the order of (how) the experience (gets) coming to be.


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Dream of fighting oneself in collapsed time, (analogous to how each person cannot reassess their purpose or direction without fighting older notions of how they previously thought they ought to be seeing things at that time, to change direction of our own lives, it is ultimately only our past ideas which prevent us from changing, decreasing, yes, but also from improving as well in ways we could not always accurately predict, that is the only thing that keeps the world static, past notions of how the future should be, not being able to conquer them or see ourselves as equal to them or not equal to the task of surmounting the past), referee, tower over Hawaii, Matrix moves without fear knowing already screwed.

When people think their society has a genuine interest in helping them achieve their own modest goals, they are more likely to work for the benefit of others and feel a sense of belonging and brotherhood with them. When a society works against this, breaks down the sense of obligation to help one another, people become less likely to be concerned of the welfare of others and answer it more and more truthfully with "Why should I help them when I know I cannot count on them to help me?" This deteriorates the foundations of societies, sets everyone eventually against each other, and benefits the worst people (in that society) and plays to humanities worst instincts. That this is being most forced upon other nations (to think in those terms) by the "Christian" right, should have by now made it apparent that labels mean nothing to the truth of what is being done. Evil is most effective when done in the name of Heaven and God. Anyone knows most often there is the selfish thing to do and the right thing to do, but now those who hold the most powerful positions always benefiting themselves and their friends convince us that it is also the right thing to do, not only by appealing to our logic and compassion, but bribing us that they will enrich us while screwing those less fortunate than ourselves and offer a place at their feast off of those weaker will be made for us if we go along with it.

I don't think I ever consciously decided to theorize about time. It is actually what I hoped to keep in my blind spot my whole life if possible. I just screwed myself over so much, it was no longer possible (to ignore) and I had to deal with it more and more to have more time. It looms over my whole life (over all previous times) like a storm cloud I must always keep moving ahead of to stay dry. Experiencing experience and time creates each and our notions of self to begin with to know anything else.

The desire to push on in a given direction makes one blind to the new factors always developing in-between everything (else previously) slowly changing everything. Staying still makes it clear these new localities and (new) states of affairs keep where you are from remaining where you were (the location or concept itself has moved relative to environmental factors which themselves are always changing), always becoming islands of (illegible) further away (from each other) anyway. Nothing about anything ever remains what or how you remember it the same to be. Only the relationship if anything, to what you yourself were which exists not anymore as well, only that (relationship can) remains the same, so it always is by your choice for it to be seen as such (still the same only because if still seen as the same relationship of two now different things neither which being what it was you remember, yourself included).

Death of binarity - Trinary concepts for 3D states and higher important. In curved environments time component becomes necessary for keeping track as paths constantly overlap same space from different directions (same trajectories, even opposite ones, overlap at different distances). Binarity of preference for cube over triangles (tetrahedrons) due to love of opposites, part of nature yet simplistic. All geometry of opposites misses importance of base state of reference or originating (measuring point) (which itself changes the environment and all else curves away from it in time and space with points further away in each direction, time and all spacial directions, collapsing back toward each other the further you go away from your chosen original starting point within the curved system) point. Trinary replacing binary concepts focuses upon self within and integral to measuring and perceiving (all the rest) of the environment only as a relationship (away) relative to the originating point. Dismissing opposites on directions and planes, binary concepts with trinary biases is key factor missing in most logical and deductive reasonings in relation to practically every other concept people use logic and polarity to consider. Everything begins with a here and now (relative to everything else to consider) and all measurements and considerations must branch off of that. Everything else revolves or exists only in relation to that one point to measure or know (of) all else. Binary is a primitive concept. The future begins by understanding trinary relationships over binary ones. Past and present as well. Everything is always in both directions away from each.

And in the future/past (which is also further away the past, like a city can be 5,000 miles away flying directly toward it and 25,000 miles away flying in the opposite direction away from it) they did/will think in trinary terms, not binary polar opposites.


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Spiders through/by time seen as greatest and longest victims trapped within/by their own webs.

Capitalism (the marketplace, books), secrecy, withholding knowledge to make it more valuable, these are at odds with anything and everything (when applied to) that can be considered good about religions. To attempt to keep things a secret is to try to control it, profit from it, it is natural but has nothing to do with anything that could ever be good (about a common good) and everything to do with anything which can be considered to be bad (when applied to knowledge everyone needs or lacks). It is greed, the desire to control or manipulate others or the future. If thought (doing so) for good (for a good reason), (it) is an argument for self-deception making oneself ones first and worst victim. Any idea which has any value whatsoever is only valuable the opposite of the way people think of things now, if it cannot be fenced off, denied to, and sold to others. That which can (be by law) only further promotes the everything-is-for-sale or everything-has-its-price mindset which is a cancer which runs through our interactions with each other with a vengeance.

Booster rocket added in flight can further your reach but alter your direction. Seeing ending as same as prolonging and direction as an inverse of distance. Time and distance are related, time and direction are opposed. Everthing every day is altering all courses of previous times. That which does not alter course (in/by its continuation) is not affected by time and ultimately is not applicable to time (may as well not exist).

More than likely the global geopolitical model will change often over the next 500 years should humanity in any form of the word survive. Sometimes to more economically just models, sometimes to ones even more socially Darwinistic because more openly (less hypocritically) committed to injustice than the one today. To takes stands for and against these if fine and necessary to some degree, but some like me must remind people they (the global political/socio-economic models) are only what can be achieved by what most people can imagine and aspire to, balanced against what the most powerful are able to take, for they will always be willing to take more than they need.

Experience as a negative against a constant positive background. Sheet transparency of overhead projector, letters (of black) on a laptop. Limiting constant perception of everything by subtracting the experiencing of everything else.

If you were too bright relative to others, what almost any government or society would use you to do, 99% of it would be bad. How to advance or enrich them or those in control of that society over other groups or limit your ability to help other groups to become nearer in wealth or power to them if they are the ones with the current advantage. This is all the knowledge people in large groups value, and all they really understand and reward their members for advancing. Those who advance a few are given wealth. Those who advance the many without much to become equals destroys the power base of the current system and to the degree they can achieve it more than any other, become eventually its greatest enemy simply because of wanting to help those whom your society hypocritically says it wants to help too, but truly doing so is the last thing on their list, and helping themselves over all others is always the first and highest priority. The brightest are subdued to help only them, harnessed, or extinguished.

Kingmakers, keys, criteria, circumstances, and potential 

Objective reality vs. subjective reality.

Dead or undead martyrs

Each grows around knowledge or ("and" better) lack of knowledge circumstantially. Th(???) or ultimate verifiability of their prior knowledge important in the end for closures but often only transient also. The effect is still all that is ultimately real or important.

Greater strength, greater intelligence, more potential, even more accomplishments, nothing I can do or change will soon make a difference to what others more "powerful" by circumstance and position only, will allow or decide what "must" happen. I may have walked into this box of circumstance with eyes wide open, but that does not make those who are and maintain its walls, get off on their ability to screw people over, does not make them any less the bastards and (too nasty to read or write) they choose to be.


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Using trinary conceptualizations to visualize (center outwards) ever cell or atoms position to every other with its body or mass, and relative to others within the environment, how they connect to others internally and how they can contact with other parts of their own masses as well as (to) others through flexibility, self-contact, and movement though empty space, gases, or liquids.

Concepts redirecting courses as well as motor movements, conceptual environment more or as determinory as well as what is physically possible.

Corner views
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1D 1? side 1 other side 1 hidden, 1/3 visible, 1/1/1
2D 1 2sides 4 1sides % 3 not seen, 1 hidden - 5/9 visible, 5/3/1 
3D 1 3sides 6 2sides - 12 1 sides % 7 not seen, 1 hidden - 19/27, 19/7/1 
4D 1 6sides ... (got bored and never went back to it)

The interaction of 2 potentials is the basis of more limited reality of time... and a line forms between...

One only exists at all relative to the things and circumstances which appear to hold one back and only exist because of such. Needing something to push through, friction against the tide of what otherwise would not be, spinning it to you (to need to react to your intents) as you fight against its preferred path. Struggle or easy is up to you.

Cannibalism still lives - whenever a region experiences a major disaster and the lives thousands are ruined, the richest of that region never fail to step in and demand a cut of the relief money or aid, even when they might not have been affected. "Helping us will help the "economy" recover" while siphoning off the funds for the most part from the poorest and providing a nice bump in the income for those with the means to most profit from the disaster relief. From New Orleans (Katrina) to Pakistan (earthquake), the story is the same. Graft and stealing profiting from the misfortunes of the weakest. First give most of the money to the richest in the area and hope some of the aid will get to the poorest, it is just the culture, just "their" way, but the "them"  this describes is every culture I have seen from the 1st world to the 3rd world. (written because of citing tsunami countries getting trade deals, wealthiest, saying giving aid to the poor of earthquake nice but help us first if you really want to help them. Greed knows no shame.)

Electrons as tying together dimensionally atoms, here and there relative to both atoms center at once through all of its "movements", always an equal distance from center of each as good example of higher dimensional "movement" in which multiple environments actually change position relative to your position at once, and from your point of view (center out), mysteriously pass through each other inexplicably and constantly. Same example as above in regards to central reality of multiple timeball states affecting each other's "movement". 

All different types of examples in notes beginning to overlap each other, time and 4D "seeing", same thing. (constant white background (perception), everywhere at once pulled through 4D straw point of view at once to interpret and measure rest relative to centers)(which adding another dimension, all other centers revolve around and overlap all other centers simultaneously)


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Law - rules written and agreed mutually between the most powerful and influential within a society for the benefit of governing their interactions between EACH OTHER to prevent constant gang wars over each other's "territory" or "interests". Weaker are not consulted except perfunctorily because 1) they do not matter, and 2) they are what is divided up for influence and traded between the most powerful groups or members, the goods or spoils of who gets to exert the most control over them (to sell to them or to control them outright) to keep the ones who make the laws be able to co-exist with each other in relative peace by not directly challenging each others bases except in regards to divvying who gets to control the trade with the weaker ones, whether in above markets (international trade) or black markets (of city streets). When one party gets substantially stronger, the other powerful groups must more and more admit that party is now in a better situation, no longer (their) equal but has now moved to a higher orbit where they are able to transgress the rules more often (than) the others who defined the laws before, because they are as much above them now as they (the others who did not move up) are above the weaker groups. Examples: M$, USA foreign policy.

Recapping economic notes thus far... Helping or being able to advance the wealth or interests of fewer numbers, usually the wealthiest who can buy or control what you offer can usually, if you can keep it from being stolen by them outright, give you great wealth. The fewer who benefit, the greater the "value" to a society. Helping everyone or the largest group possible, making poorer people less poor, and the less easy it is to control and limit what you have to offer, can usually get you a bullet. This is why the wealthy of a region where aid helps those affected by a natural disaster will naturally step in and say,"Hey, wait a minute, what do you think you are doing here? Whatever you give to them (the poorer), you have to give even more to us or you are upsetting the natural balance of our society and our ability to control them. We cannot have this disaster empowering them to be in a situation better than they were in before or they will be able to demand concessions from us or afford to strike or take collective action somewhere down the road."And if the aid is coming from wealthier countries, they can rightly say, "You don't want that either because it will negatively affect your economies too, a trickle up effect affecting your investments in potentially other (poor) regions as well." Helping the poor within a society or making them poor nations substantially less poor inevitably makes it more difficult to control them and less able to tell their governments what policies to purse in line with richer countries interests in their assets which they covet as well, and often own (them) more than those nations ever can afford to own themselves, making them in effect, bound to be poorer neighborhoods of richer city-"states" which can dictate their policies in their own interests, and not in the interests of those in that country. Those ruthless barons we do not like benefit us economically and always have. The greater their control, the greater opportunity for richer outside groups to benefit from their willingness for exploiting their own publics. They rightly say "help them at your own risk," and these groups will always be given more aid than the desperate of that region to keep the socio-economic situation "stable". As said best before previously (in notes 3), what people would only do for great sums of money is usually what ought not to be done at all. From prostitution to contract killing, the more horrible what people are asked to do, the more society will value it and pay them for it. That is the true economic basis societies are built upon. You cannot be richer unless there are others poorer, you cannot be strong unless others are weaker, the more powerful you become, the less power others must have and give to you to do as you say. As a group, you cannot raise yourself above others without pushing someone else down. You either work for greater equality or work for profit or increasing the control or influence of others to do as you (or a few others) wish more than they wish, or control what they wish for.


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Sweden seems interesting to me because of the supposed greater social equality. To think you can do away with poverty and still have a functioning society may be easier to do on a small scale, simply a city of Rome surrounded by slavery elsewhere, but the idea that the world can and should function one day without the poverty and misery our current economic models (which), when we admit it, (know they) depend upon, that ought to be worked for rather than despised or sabotaged at every turn, especially since that improved equality between rich and poor (nations) is what rich nations say they want to achieve, while pursuing policies always destined to concentrate wealth in poorer countries into fewer parties hands.

Truth vs. what people prefer others to think and spend lots of money and TV coverage to say (that) the opposite of what is real is what is true.

Other? from outsider's perspective

Still doing the being thing

Feeling the need (in others) of the desperate for something not needed, (all) junkies looking for a fix, anything which people through habit or biology (or advertising) long for something which society pushes or keeps one step away, but in pain (or longing) without it, incomplete, suffering. Self-inflicted or by birth, people still long (for?) others to need or crave (what they have to offer) so they can provide it, for a large fee of course.

Most people have absolutely no clue what is or is not possible for them to do because they are constantly having to fulfill others expectations, and those expectations are designed first and foremost to limit their attempts and their reconsidering what is or is not possible. The real and truest obstacles to change are placed on our minds via our aspirations. They are the chains that keep us confined like pets trained not to need physical leashes, just so long as they cannot shake off the mental collars. Mine (collar) is what I hoped to achieve. Without that I might be able to do or have anything, but would not even have me.

That I, in the end, limited what I said to what I thought others ought to know or believe to be truth makes me as bad as governments and religions, sitting high upon a hill deciding what others should think of or believe. I at least did so without any self-interest or aims of my own, while more organized groups really do so for the benefit of their own members, no matter what bullshit about the good of Mankind they feed to others or choose to eat themselves. It is natural when you know a lot, see what others don't, have that wider perspective, to only try to tell people what you think they ought to know about, will keep them from hurting themselves or others, and in the end will make them happier to have lived. In some instances when it does not profit or benefit you or others, withholding something from them you know would push them further than they are ready to go, would only confuse them, and do no good, it is not as wrong as when you or someone benefits from withholding it. Then, you can never be sure of the motivations. In the end, each's own ignorance is partly by choice as much as it is by circumstance and timing. Make happiness come alive. All who kill happiness in anyone harm all life, including their own.

When every moment seems the last

We are all like prisoners of the expectations upon us of the worlds we were born into, as much limited by them and as defined by them as our physical selves are rigidly defined. Even if we were free to roam the planet, or the solar system, or beyond, the circumstances of those around us, their plights, we can put out of sight and even sometimes out of mind, but we can never truly escape them. Those circumstances, ourselves in relation to others, they are ourselves more than our bodies are.

Through a paradoxical view of what would or must happen, I was forced to throw out literally everything I knew about the future and the past, and start over again completely from scratch. As Inventor said better, (At the end of Section 4.1 of 2D 3D 4D 5D Thinking Made Simple, there was a good bit about how both your understanding and misconceptions arise together and what you think about something limits your ability to understand how what you know keeps you from learning what you don't know) that is where all reasonings must take you as often as possible. Going back to square one, routinely, incessantly, and without end is the only way to get a true and valid perspective on anything. People who think that the further you travel in your premises, the more you advance, they are fools. Anything you might ever wish to or hope to learn about anything, you are always just a heartbeat away from figuring out, and the path to get there inevitably crosses that point of where you must assume nothing before getting there. Whatever path you take must keep looping back, so plan wherever you hope to go, you must repeatedly pass through where your journey's to find the truth began, from square one, assuming nothing, suspecting anything, and anticipating every possibility ever to need to go to eventually.


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Losing control of your own choice of reproduction and DNA would be bad enough, losing copyright control over your own consciousness would be even worse. It fundamentally raises the question, what if anything about your life belongs solely to you to decide what to give out and what to withhold, and is losing that ability (to meter out) a good thing or a bad thing, or potentially both depending on the motivations and actions of others why they try and what they do with it.

The greatest and possibly the only difference between a political despot and a humanist humanitarian is the amount of power they have and the length of time they have held it.

I agree with most concerned that my time has not come yet, but without this it many not have a chance to come at all.

Dead to you or dead? If no contact anyway, is it the same? Say someone leaves to a far off place you can never hear from again, would their existence or non-existence if you would never hear from or about them, really concern (have relevance) to you? Leaving aside possible mental links which are not necessarily in real time anyway, what point would there be in thinking of any connection between you and them (still exists) or of thinking of them at all? (Not to say there is not point, just how and why would it be desirable and what is the ultimate purpose served?) (Obviously if you could have future contact or news, it still is in the sphere of your life and potential future experiences. Removing all traces of any degree of future interaction, contact, or news about them makes the question clearer)

Binary star system where two positives become negatives to each other, counter-weights or balances which react as a partial negative system (field of one becomes both the field of the other and also something  outside of it to react against, a Siamese twin of space/time.)

Anti-history Book - history books positive about human development which enabled civilizations to grow (and that this was good), (and are written) from the point of view of winners who ethnically-cleansed (in the same area), starved to death, and murdered all competing civilizations. Anti-history would show would show how these "civilizations" we celebrate would look from the points of view of all these destroyed, often more peaceful and developed civilizations not as savage (as our "winners" were.) Portraying organizations for mass murder, modern warfare, destruction of others food supplies, as equally important for our societies existences. Slavery, colonization, ethnic cleansing of indigenous populations, and the religious justifications and motivations for organizing people for doing so, (showing these) equally held up as "advancements" as the domestication of animals and the harvesting of crops. A full complete version of the "flowering" of civilization including the shit it sprang from and the bullshit in needs to keep the hypocrisy and exploitation moving full-steam ahead without regrets and leaving a trail of idealized "positive" history behind which is as much lies as it is social propaganda to keep people from wondering about their past in a way that would expose itself to knowledge, which if told honestly, would drive people to make the current heir policies of such brutality, the civilized false facade it wears, make them wish to stop because the disguise (how what we do now traces the same line) would no longer fool anyone.

Scratches, etching on others lives and in others memories.

As I wrote on the title page of Polsci.com (under the Pentacle paragraph), going to Hawaii I saw the future as all black, nothingness. I swore no matter what happened, no matter how much went wrong in the world, no matter how many were suffering, nothing would ever again cause me to want to get involved or leave. That is what everybody seemed to want, stay there, think of no one but myself, make money selling software, that is what society expects people to want to do. The opposite (my doings) may rub everyone the wrong way, but how can it be worse that being rewarded (or thought better) at having turned my back on the rest of the world, yet having my government pleased even if I were doing literally nothing good for anyone but generating higher revenues? I saw more (of?) a higher opportunity to change things, I went for it, and the pieces of how it all fitted together I doubt anyone will see for some time to come.

Gotta love ideologies power to make some people stupid and others rich...
East Europe 1985: "Capitalism is an evil. Communism is your best path to a better future. Now please ignore that we are only using this as an excuse to keep ourselves perpetually in power and keep ourselves rich."
East Europe 2005: "Socialism is an evil. A market-economy is your best path to a better future. Now please ignore that we are only using this as an excuse to make our friends obscenely wealthy while you become poorer than you ever dreamed possible while we buy yachts and move to better countries after leaving office. You can revolt against us of course, but only to people who will pursue the same path as us, only more rapidly, while you morons can think your choice prevailed and you won something other than to be yet again more screwed than you were before."

Running quickly on a ball - if your mind was on where you were and what you were doing at the moment, if you could ever determine it without falling over or even know, it would be unimportant. You would have to be focused completely several seconds ahead. Likewise, what I am currently doing to me is already the past as my focus in time is concentrated several frames ahead and only comes close to the present when necessary to catch my balance if I start to move in directions liable to fall off or move in the wrong direction (from where wish to end up) for too long.


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Feedback loops with the future overlapping others with the past, like shuffling cards, left side and right side overlap and change the sequence with additions being put in the middle in-between from both directions at once. Such is what we call the present, the center where the middle distance between the half deck on the left and right is not so important as the current moment which is changing the order of both the future and the past by always attempting to sandwich itself between and makes the growth always from the center outwards in every moment.

Like a jigsaw puzzle, all the pieces were right there in front of you, plain as day, you just don't see the optimal way of how they fit together yet.

Same thing as like removing a large tumor. You can't just cut it out without a plan of redirecting the blood flows because if it is there long enough, it reorganizes all else in the body to depend upon it, making itself central to all else around it so that attempting to remove it would be fatal. However letting it grow or ignoring it is just as fatal, only slower and it takes foresight to see that before it too late. One must have a plan of organization to see how things must be reorganized when once what should have never been there in the first place is finally removed.

If I were to achieve the best possible goal, every normal person anywhere in the world being smarter and having more accurate knowledge than myself in less than 40 years, not only would authoritarian governments become impossible to manage, but all the political technologies and institutional devices and structures designed to prevent the majorities in countries to have greater influence over their governments policies than its wealthiest elites who now treat their government's representatives like lapdogs, these structures to prevent true democracy from appearing would constantly be exposed, districting, divisiveness, electronic voting fraud, loss of exit polling and parallel official counts, anything which prevents the most supporters from having the greatest representation, the politically charged and corrupted courts, they would not find fertile soil to grow. The world system as always is founded on and revolves around (and depends on) ignorance.

For those who cannot have children of their own, for whatever reason, know them to be capable, that within their possible despair over this, they can more easily attain a higher perspective upon life. We are not socially far removed from a group of monkeys where the head monkey of the group is solely motivated over the long term, besides having a good time, to jockeying that his heirs will also inherit his position and control over the group if he has secured it for himself. The world's current head baboon, not withstanding any relevance to anything else, this is why higher education is often distributed first and best to mainly the children of wealthier groups. Lessening its universal availability, like so many other things, makes it more valuable, and thus not only can you build an economic system around it, higher salaries for less work for instructors, but you can count on the less bright of the higher-ups never having the lowly positions their incompetence would suggest would be in the best interests of all. For those not trapped in this biological circle of trying to ensure that those of a generation or many more ahead, unfortunate enough to share a microfragment of their DNA with you, have the best jobs to tell everyone else how great you were and show respect for your memory or else, these people can more easily see all others who can be affected by anything which we do, build schools, improve working conditions, all of these people are equally our offspring because they will be affected more by our existences than just a biological link to someone in an inferior-to-them's past they don't want to remember or give a shit about anyways. People should see their legacy in deeds alone and not their offspring as their ticket to immortality. They are a part of everyone they meet and affect as well, as much as their children's lives are a part of them.


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Life or death, test of how incorrect

The only thing that will ensure that any peoples survive the next century is a world based on inviolable international law and not which country or groups of countries have the most or worst weapons of mass destruction.

Always about the data

Curled memories

Corporate loss of identity of achievements into corporate advancements means corporate identity becomes employee's identity, wants corporation to advance and survive so their achievements within it will have value and be recognized with future. Government, politicians, same sense, survival of the structure = survival of their contributions (for advancing it at all costs) to it not being pissed on.

"Friendly to business candidate" line from BBC You have your good candidate, friend of corporations (and of course the media corporations telling you who is good and bad), vs. the other guys.

Putting things (events of potential knowledge and things to happen) in terms of a life story.

Bigger than box

Bigger scale than people can conceive

Stopping all motion

Away from view you can either change the future blind to (knowing how) what you do (changes things) further on, muddies the waters, proportionate to taking yourself out (as a variable), changing nothing and seeing all effects clearly, is an alternate view; the only thing which is real is what you change (from how what might otherwise have occurred), a dynamic inverse of viewing a static universe which exists outside and independent of yourself as if (in the later view) your existence is superfluous or unnecessary. Trashing that (detached enslaving view) in favor of (seeing) interactions only and not seeing the universe as an independent thing outside of yourself.

Eraser (if applicable)

Reality x2

Ubutu definition ("I am who I am because we are who we are"), measure all things together (The sole determinate of what anything is is determined by what everything else is (in relation to itself and it to theirselves), What everything else is is the sole way to measure the value or properties of anything else). Actually (usually) cool to be me only forever frustrated people so far behind and savage can never break free and cut loose and do all I can without losing concern for all and (then) see all (others) as expendable. See the universe as a toy too much as is.

Spiegel’s book (The Dreaded Comparison: Human vs. Animal Slavery) I finally read after having it around many weeks, does a good job of showing humanity's true colors. It traces the line of exploitation and asks the right questions about whether this is a part of human nature. The focus (on how it is done) just shifts but the streak it represents is ever present, from native peoples, blacks, poorer countries, its evolution (exploitation) into a science, how to keep people happy in perpetual bondage. How to put a few locals into elites of power, give them the weapons and wealth to force all others to have to work for them, so much less incendiary than foreign "ownership" of them, and then send in our factories to reap the rewards of the people they have "broken in". Train their police forces in torture and other means, random arrests, tortures not for information but as displays of power, and most of all creating new markets for more weapons sales. The greatest hypocrisy of all that I have seen, no doubt minor because my information is sporadic and limited, was the sale (or proposed sale) of Apache attack helicopters not to the Chinese army but to the Beijing police department! Decry Tiananmen Square yet sell them a machine capable of killing thousands of civilians in minutes, what of course are profits for if not for killing all who would stand in up against a friend of our corporations. But then again all police departments need anti-personnel helicopters with machine guns in countries where few to none have weapons but are learning how to make posters.

Events in your future like planets in a funnel. Some you know you will do or will happen, some must at a certain time, others you can change the order, some you have not considered yet. You are drawn to ones and can avoid the pull of others. Each moment of each day is like a new point in an expanding universe, a new and completely different universe. You can alter the direction away from any events you were previously headed towards, but how much you need it, how long in your life you wanted to go there, that is the pull you are fighting whenever you try to completely change direction, as well as how close it is to occurring, and how big it is completely dominating all other possible directions to go in, how big a shadow it creates which looms over what you have done in the past or what you hope to do in the future, or parts of both.

Dis Am Dem myth and reverb

Zeros, growth, income, population, prices, real estate

The world will never be unified even if homogenous, why that is good and bad 

Anyone who looks ahead 50 or 100 years, no matter your country loyalty or ideology, all the problems are the same and global. Countries must become as irrelevant to me in prioritizing as race is supposedly in the US for me to get the best perspective on necessary changes. They must be sellable and more than agreeable to the rich countries but benefit the poorer countries many times more than anything yet discussed, at the same time.


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The book with pictures

As if all you had to do is wait and everything you need to do gets done by someone else, a library of what was all open for you to read and have all the answers while freed to do anything you wish with your own life.

Wheel of all you could have done, all you could have known, reversed to the center spigot and turned through making that center (that present you now inhabit) the only point and having to happen (needing to have occurred) though seeing different roads to get there and different futures (branching away) from it, that moment alone preordained yet also following a string spinning in both directions at once while defining (creating) a line like a pinwheel moving down a clothes line or through the air.

(picture of smaller pinwheel superimposed over larger one both spinning in opposite directions) (also later smaller one offset from larger like a counter-spinning planetary system rotating in the opposite direction of its rotational movement around a galactic core)

Future as any (possible) path, line, through a solid object. All points of each possible place (you could be or state you could be in) and path in there somewhere, (represented by) a definite point and place. Everything beyond each point, the factors that would not lead you to that point, from that point's position, none of those other factors exist of any other times and events which would not have lead you there and those other points spin in a different direction than the paths which lead there and branch forward from there. Within the block, not just lines to travel but mutually exclusive ones (lines) passing through every (possible) point and place you could be, what you could be doing, and what memories are real from that point backwards setting up where you (would be inclined to want to) go from there, senses of identity like junctions through every point and place many universes of yourself can stand at the same place the same time with different histories bringing you there and because of that, mutually exclusive futures branching away from there you would have to follow from each differently.

Advancing on a collision course with possibly the most powerful and corrupt administration ever, with what its Senators called the President's nearly unlimited means at his disposal to manufacture reality as he sees fit, hold any US citizen "protected" by the Constitution or any foreigner in prison without trial or even charges indefinitely for life on his say so alone, able to intimidate any press to recant any story no matter how factual (true) under guise of "national security" (Newsweek) and against this unrestrained mass-production machine of limitless lies capable of being tailored instantly to fit any case of anything I might say, all I have to cling to is truth even I can be made to recant, and even be made to cease to believe, with the sole assurance that once spoken and recorded, if humanity survives, someone someday must eventually be able to verify that it was true.

Sensing how cells of your body relate to spacially to each (all) other, how they can touch (or brush up against each other), how meant to touch, hand to hand, thumb to fingers and palm, hands to mouth and face, etc. Awareness of each's (part, cell) purpose in relation to movement against other parts of the whole, arms especially of course, once understanding their interactions with each other (by design) gives a model to understanding a species' interactions with each other as if cells.

What you think of in terms of another's physical nature, relationships, mind, attitudes, and apply that as your opinion of them, seeing those aspects as they might see or know them in relation to themselves, then see how they would apply that same perspective to you. A feedback loop.

It is easy trying to understand species trying to out-evolve each other. Same to think of minds trying to out-understand each other. Knowing one step ahead of the other is advantageous. Having others having you pegged first is inevitably losing power to them. I prefer keeping others as much as a mystery as possible because once I understand them, I am inevitably disappointed and find them or that knowledge irrelevant. Few can adapt quicker and more intrinsically than myself, at least that has been my experience thus far. Fewer surprises lately and no more great leaps by unexpected finds in others abilities to copy or adapt to. Most are too simple for trying to be too much alike.

Lawyers www

Meet Bill

Don't ask what we do, we do it for you.

Life shot out of a cannon, starry journeys, "then let to grasp at something", blue, Yoshoo, passing through getting stuff stuck to you, defined by circumstances only, sucking you in, spitting a chronology out.

When I say that something is a motivation for me, it is not the same as saying it necessarily will be allowed to influence my choices. For me, motivations are just a combined aggregate for bothering to get up every morning. Many are just puzzles or cliff-hangers still awaiting a resolution. Some could, under limited circumstances, affect choices I may make, others simply keep my attention until they have been satisfactorily addressed or answered.

Rice (again), everything that's bad in terrorism that happened until now happened because you did not let us torture enough people [2014 Note: Obama just began using the same line of "reasoning" to justify total spying on everyone all the time without necessarily suspicion or a warrant]. Anything bad that happens from now on is your fault just because you are preventing us from torturing enough people without charges or trials and it will be on your head. However many you allow us to torture, we will still be able to say these bad things happened only because you weighed us down and kept us from torturing and killing even more without any legal processes. A Gini index of torture that can never be satisfied.

This person as seen through that person. This person as seen through the eyes of that person. An aggregate sum of relationships. Vetoable?

The concept of copyrights is to protect those who put the time and money to produce material to get a return for making it available to the general public. Copyrights have been subverted to using them as an excuse to limit material from being offered at affordable prices to much of the world, even after the cost of distribution (via Internet or CD/DVDs) has fallen low enough that would make it profitable to all (albeit at far lower markups but not astronomical as now) but those who wish to keep prices artificially high (keeping entire regions of the globe as ignorant and poor as possible).

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Life story - external view of your circumstances (solidified) bookended by events as others would see it. Inside view, changes as well as past modifications as events made in you, and changes via experiences you hope you and others will experience in the future.

Triangulating with certain points or consciousnesses in the future while moving toward them, back with other points or consciousnesses in your present, past, or future also moving toward that same point you are currently moving towards, how they (and you) will collide decades or centuries later. Yet moving the focal point around in different possible futures, different others aims come into focus as well as different sections of your present. Only motion toward a point shows all else (which is) on similar paths (of later convergence). Everything which exists is on collision paths to regroup or absorb others at different points later. It is how and when which differs as well as why, but why is subjective and purposely obscured, same as why parted in the first place.

Patterns statement, with and without words (speech), consciousness, biology, matter, organizations, ideologies, and their physical constructs needed to preserve them.

Torture - nothing going to happen that you would like or wish to be a part of, events wholly external to yourself and (your) wishes. You (then) live solely at the whim and desire of others, taking your will to live and everything with it (that follows from it) from you.

Concentric circles of awareness

If not what I want, what for?

Jurisprudence

Articles like fireworks waiting to use the launch pad

Government conditioning - picks a sub-group of a sub-group of a sub-group and convinces all (of its) civilians or soldiers to think they are all (typical of that group or) a potential enemy. That was not a woman or child killed in the line of duty but a potential suicide bomber or would-be some day terrorist. Don't feel bad (about it), they might have had it coming to them even if the odds were they were innocent and harmless. Controlling perception of potential enemies of the state so they, who you control, only see people the way the government wants so much they hardly see them at all or as humans. These people are more dead than those they kill or want to see killed who are not so conditioned.

Surface area contact when tying (binding) boards (together) in 2D a 1d edge, in 3D a 2D plane (narrow edge or widest with most surface contact)(square inch) of surface, and 4d on a 3d triplane (cubic inches)(strings tied to (binding against) all atoms inside at once)

That all already know whatever you can teach them, experience brought out which already exists, potential as (a) form of events just not remembered yet

Remembering non-sequentially past and future, changes the mix on (the) order of events yet to occur. It is like connect-the-dots in happenstance order. Dots are still there (left to go) but shape of what you create seems different because of the order (is different than expected before). Order is (limited?)(linked?) to conscious identity but dots to go still remain the same. Can also repeat though, any other to make whatever design you choose, but must use pre-existing dots only spread out over time all at once (conceptually visually speaking) even if you can't see them yet, the have (or will have (preexistent reality)) existence in "temporal" places (again meaning a preexistent sense of reality of something which can occur), or ways to occur when all factors line up right to allow (such potential occurrences) to happen. Every possible combination of events unlocks some (sense of) identity, experience, or locked away piece of knowledge, just may or may not be valued to what you want to do, be, or have, or experience at that time.

We, all who exist, whoever existed before, whoever will come later, were all born slaves, even its rulers, to whatever system existed which lead to our creations, however just or unjust, and are raised to propagate and continue that system. Few ever have the power to even affect it substantially, never mind to remake it into anything better. Yet that is the dream we have, the big lie we are told in all movies, government propaganda, education programs, that the machine (of society) responds to us, that it cares what we think, and we can make a difference. No machine or system really provides that (ability to change itself) for long. All are dependent upon selling the illusion that it changes when it never really does. The truth of the matter is the most power usually lies with the most barbaric peoples and policies, hidden behind the most elaborate smokescreen which can be afforded, invented, or devised at the time, to make everyone cheer their lack of ability to influence it (if they find it does not really ever change) and that perfection (in the type of government and economic system) has arrived and complacency to just accept it is finally warranted, no matter how many other billions are suffering just outside your sight. The machine cares about them, it always claims, yet it admits it cannot truly help them, ever. They are a necessity to be helped forever ineffectively. (Most development aid is aimed at making the richest in a poor areas richer, controlling their peoples better, then to send in our companies to collect what the local bosses reap from their "human" harvest, not to aid those who are the most poor there to instead not to have to work for them, ever, (where would be our profit incentive in that?) for usually it is the most barbaric people who rise to the top in the horrible conditions to be found there in the chaos, and have become rich off of it. They are who we will aid, and they wll reward us back with a cut of their profits from their "harvests" which we will give them the means to let them reap them. Without limiting population growth, it not only will always devolve to this, it will only find new ways of getting far more barbaric than anyone living now can imagine.)

With 2 histories match, with 3 histories differ

Killer turd blanket played backwards (like Black Knight scene in Holy Grail)

The subversion, marginalization, and (increasing) impotence of elected legislatures. The "business first" models of America, Russia, and China. How to make your people do what you want against their own wishes. Can be as simple as blackmail or as complex as MKULTRA style brainwashing. But since that is most valuable (knowledge or ability), it cannot be wiped out or forgotten and is traded (between countries and even more powerful organizations than ANY country) as the most valuable of currencies.


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I see my relationship with my country's government, or parts thereof, at the moment like a farmer's son wanting to go off and be a different occupation than is in the farmer's ideas of what he had in mind and measured his expectations by. It is simply a matter of being able for the son to make the father understand being a whatever is something more important and better in the long run for both, than being what was expected when raised. (Times change, always take notice where you are is not where you thought you would be and never can be.) The debt and sense of obligation is the same, but the need to repay it in ones own manner of choosing by ones own standards can try the bonds which are subjective and never understood until and unless tested.

One's strength should not be judged by the power of ones (self or) allies, but of ones potential enemies. They forge you to be stronger, sometimes at the expense of being (becoming something) better. That is too high a price for any with integrity to pay. Integrity is almost a forgotten concept to those who revel and are prideful of their strength. Those who see the survival of anything as paramount, they forget it is most always at the expense of being willing to change into something even better. That is the blindness which accompanies power and the ability to control what would otherwise encourage you to evolve into something better and more just, and hold onto an increasingly unmanageable present sinking ever lower to hold it together. (That is) the eternal dilemma which the world must soon look squarely in the eye and face up to.

Church pre-Renaissance, controlling all art, sculptures. Corporations owning weapons industries controlling (news organizations and) what movies are made (creating), war porn, glorifying weapons, wars, vigilantes, conflicts, etc. and with US government cooperation (and help). Controlling what will be put efore the public to be awed by remembered (by next generations) as "their" culture because this is the face shown to us and handed down), instead of (being thought of as) what is decided by a few (powerful elites) of what culture is to be thought of as  Money means their "artistic" representations of it (culture, movies, tv shows, now exposed secretly paid for government planted and paid for "positive" news articles), are all that will be remembered and passed down while the truth of most peoples lives and opinions (against all this faked, fictitious "culture’s lies) will die out with them, quietly and anonymously.

There is always someone who chooses to be an expert on almost anything. Be it an old-time sporting team's lineup and statistics, the mating of insects or larvae, the diet of bears or fish. The question is why they choose such things to wish to become experts about, and more puzzling, what makes one person's expertise, knowledge, or abilities valuable to another who chose not to wish to know them firsthand but is content to simply exploit, use, and control those who did, do, and can.

Of any lead or highly ranked (top of the) news stories by major (news) services, I find only 20% or so of my interest is motivated by the "facts" presented, even when I believe them to have been attempted to be put forward without biases and prejudices, difficult to do and too rarely now (unslanted news) even attempted. At least twice as much or 40% of my interest is what effect this story will have on peoples' attitudes, actions, and beliefs as that is at least twice as important as the "news" itself. Equally as important as that, say the other 40% remaining of my interest is how and why that story was chosen to be considered of major or more emphasis than the thousands of other things equally as important that will be covered less or, as with most, not at all. What is it editorially, financially, politically, sociologically, or psychologically that says this is what people will think is important or want to be told about, or what those with the power to decide such things will decide to be placed in front of peoples' eyes to read, to hear about or to see. Those who see things in the news (hierarchy) in this manner can learn from it. Those who follow it (the news) without putting most of their attention on its effects on them and others, and who, how, or why it has been decided that that information should be told to many to inevitably wish to produce an effect by the telling, (those who) simply react to the news, they are simply sheep being lead around wherever anyone with the power to influence what the media decides to lead with or considers of more importance, wishes to take them.

Fountains, chandeliers, mirror sculptures.

Cubical program interfaces, tubes in tires, 4D thinking

(picture of interlocked donuts) + many (in 3D, no room for more, in 4D, lots of room) spaces where touch, future and past, separate and (yet) both continuous (eternally), (and interlocked, interconnected) same with people, connected, no room for more than two (as with diagram) or infinite room for other views (future and past seeming a complete equally matched pair away from each present like the interconnected donuts, yet both yielding to new constant changes to both, not seeing the (potential for) space which continues separating the two further away from each moment of the present (and each other) like not seeing where to add new spaces for (and equally between both) putting in new donuts in between the interconnected donuts) (requires seeing it (interconnected rings) or thinking about it extra dimensionally, like 4D toruses).

What I could do with architecture, public spaces, and art alone would blow most peoples' minds, yet the way others want things to go, no one must know these things and kept bottled up, marginalized, dependent, and even starved out.

Exposed for a short time to what others are doing or thinking

Media frames debate on death penalty, chooses which stories to run and how to fit them into the debate. Pro-death penalty seek to devalue in the most visceral way possible human life while at the same time, saying they do so to protect and defend it, making one and all part of a would-be lynch mob who would murder others, but then again, even Jesus would support the death penalty (this religious types blood lusting to kill others would probably say).

Interlocked rings, swells, inner to outer

Hundreds of millions employed (to make) and wanting (for their job security) a high-tech super-soldier world, the largest economies built around the pursuit of it, a world economic system built around the pursuit of it. How many would stand up and say no, stop making more and more lethal weapons, stop finding more extreme (cheaper, more massive, and quicker) ways of killing. No matter their numbers, they will never have economic power for the machine is unstoppable, no matter how insane it is or gets, and never ceases to be able to turn human deaths, actual and the threat of which, into greater and greater profits. Peace is a lonesome pauper by comparison fated perpetually to be without power.


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Downward pressure matched by upward and outward potential. Born in a pressure cooker.

A person could have spent many years in a coma or hospital, (in) prison or (in the) army. The point is not everyone of the same age thinks alike or has had similar histories, though most do, take jobs at a certain age, have children at a certain age, etc. Though I have never been as yet taken out of society as completely as the types above, I have had a very freeform life not conducive to any standard modes or models of experiences as others have had. As a result, most of my outlooks are not typical as being defined (greatly influenced) by age, ethnicity, or location, nor even eras of history. I am in a way grown to be an observer of human nature loathe to interfere, yet by being sometimes cannot help but to. It is more than any senses of identity, preference, or interests, what we are all born and solely exist to do: to interfere with the lives, plans, and worlds of others around us.

Circles (3)(the two circles touching in the middle of a third) as a 2D version of the dual Earth sculpture, people as 5D. Time component changes.

Unless someone besides Bush (not that he has said so) is willing to step up to the plate and advocate the killing off of billions of unnecessary and in-the-way poor people who are beginning to outlive their ability to be usefully exploited, and actually try to feed and house these people by Western standards instead of double-standards, then the world economy will have to switch from one that values scarcity at all or higher costs (diamonds, gold, etc.) to one that rewards highest those industries that provide the most people possible with low-cost goods instead of now where the highest profit margins are to small niche markets catering to the whims and wishes of the super-rich. These smaller markets should still exist and have value but the entire principle that fewer in quantity makes something more valuable needs to be turned on its head. Luxury taxes are only one approach and not ideal by far. Tax breaks and subsidies to those who provide the most people possible with what they need to survive is where the most competition and interest should be even and ESPECIALLY when the profit margin is low, rather than how to constantly fall all over each other to make giant profits by making toys for the super-wealthy and no one else. This being the goal of large groups of people solely for the big bucks it guarantees is indeed a luxury when half the people in the world have no homes of their own, no safe or sure place to live and raise their children without destitution and fear, and no way forward BY DESIGN to get out of such a situation unless they are extremely exceptional. Those that deal with reversing that mindset and economic reality the world is currently based on deserve the most attention, acclaim, and the greatest rewards.

Those with the power to have people accused of things no matter their innocence, no matter sometimes the amount or veracity of evidence, these are the groups beginning to assert control all over the world, especially in the US and Russia. Mostly they are influenced by intelligence and/or criminal organizations. Where evidence is unchallengeable or the police powerless to look into how it got there, where the accusation or pretrial incarceration alone will destroy a person's life, those with the power to have someone charged with something effectively can blackmail almost anyone and not only have them by the balls, but increasingly the whole of society as well.

3D scra, inverse.

2 figure 8's, centers overlapping, time loops into extra dimension to both.

Body locked into time, surroundings, mind also, anticipates yet also in step with surrounding environment, perceptual environment similarly based upon actual (what to react to)

Time hypersphere, space hypersphere (both centered around your present and place) overlapping opposed (multidimensional) spinnings.

3D mirror

Trispinning to 2D people, quadspinning to 3D people

Push, pull, of futures and movements. Everything in past always and never occurring at same time.

Several lifetimes of catching up to do, and combine.

Balls sculpture reversed in curved space like circles circling globe at equator, swelling, passing through each other.

Unwelcome non-deaths of martyrs. Robbing one of this past "event" of death voided, life reinterpreted (its meaning changing) continually until encapsulated (at one of its ends).

Reverse links (html) forward in time. (Basically links on pages go back to older similar ideas. Thinking of linking to future ideas which connect to the same train of thought than past ones. Not literally on pages alone, but relating what doing now to what others will do in the future with it, forward links instead of always looking backwards, idea of which.)

Quantum variables - what can change relative to everything else vs. what changes in-line with everything else. Seeing everything as potential for change either alongside or against, static is a myth.

Non-existence = potential shifted to (the) periphery outside of system or edge of system. Zero = infinity.

Abilities not applicable unless (having) something to do.

In river game (Dragonquest?) as if sometimes (in some plays) door behind wall, sometimes not. (As if all repetitions of game or life, the outside environment were not changed as well, thinking just because you do something different, a different outcome would occur. Thinking as if each run through, the game board or rules are reset as well. That idea if true or believed makes life seem more helpless and unpredictable than simply operating in a static environment that would be the same in each possible run through or every time you played the game. With actual games would make longer or impossible to master and more time wasteful (higher replay value) but with life, if more than one play of ones life were possible, it would be more impossible to surmount possible obstacles if possible outcomes (environmental) can be changed as well as choices.)

Sometimes believed what told by others would set up expectations and contributed to events, sometimes expectations were internal, not actualized as by (interaction with) others speakings or teachings, sometimes what happened came as a (complete) surprise, blind and cold.

Freeze all past events, thoughts, beliefs, about what will or should happen, expectations into stone of the moment you are in, combine it all into one preset past for that moment to jump forward from or dissect its parts equally (all ideas, memories, expectations, beliefs (at that moment in time), sense of identity or purpose at that time).

"Those thens (are) not me now," the inevitable view of or after rapid growth of consciousness or attitude, environmental change or perception shifts or increases. Same as your biology as well. My coat is older than any cell in me. Seeing every moment as a new combination (of yourself and your environment) not existing before (-> older () before <- as="" both="" br="" ideally="" in="" of="" one="" or="" outside="" previous="" well="" you="">
If you want to keep yourself alive, you can be or become bad by wanting to keep your current pattern existing too long at the expense of other better new patterns to come along you might steal accomplishments from or otherwise instead support or contribute to. If you want to die, you can be considered bad or selfish by wasting your greater ability to help others compared to when you were younger and less able to help others. Best to do as much good as you can while you can and not have any opinions about the length of the time frame you may seem to have had from (this) one lifetime's point of view to have operated within.

Seeing motivation (as) trying to dump as much information about potential futures as quickly as possible held up only by what would no doubt destroy them, yet (this) negative environment and time shortening precluded doing so, having far more to draw upon that others will one day know than most in the present (seemingly) have any clue about, better and worse variations of humanity, stronger and more able to control environments. "True" science is a ridiculous concept. Some breakthroughs lead to more control yet saying at any point in history, now as ridiculous as 10,000 years ago, that we can explain the age of the universe and all about it (its rules) is like saying we can predict the winner in an election based upon 5 votes out of billions cast and hundreds of thousands of candidates. Our perception is that limited and visible (based) knowledge (is) that discriminate. There will always be something beyond what we learn because our needs and drives will create it.Stepping outside of time, seeing ourselves creating our own futures to step into, to move into to create other times, other worlds to conquer, that is the view I try to impart and that all else you have to work with, use, create, or destroy, is just food or litter along the way, or both depending on what time it is and if you have consumed or adapted to it yet.

Line surf to 1D motion.

If you are a man, you should when reading or thinking, see each word, thought, and idea expressed as a woman quite different in beliefs and temperament than you would see or judge them. The same if you are a woman, see your own views and opinions while looking (at things) through the minds, life, and experience of a man who is almost your opposite in temperament and attitudes. Find that thread that is the same in you and in someone seemingly the opposite of you, that commonness shared or present in both, both to know how to best deal with and appeal to them (or others like them), and also to know and understand (fully) what sets you apart, makes you unique or different in contrast to them, for it is only through them (their existence and interactions with them) and exposure to their different beliefs (and ways of thinking) that your own are discovered (fleshed out) or even have existence as anything more valuable or unique than sand, or dirt that one naturally assumes must exist everywhere equally (thoughts or attitudes unchallengeable as obvious to all). Finding when they do not (are not universal) may not make them more valuable, but by knowing how others differ than you while holding onto the thread that unites you and created both, is how you find yourself, through the interactions with seeming opposites that share a common past, a side-by-side present, and (by requirement inevitably) a common destiny eventually.

Bribing for peace- It is ludicrous for appointees of corrupted governments in the pocket of weapons industries to be the ones turned to to negotiate peace deals. On one hand, it makes sense because if they are not appeased, they can and will dump tons more weapons into the arena on loan to make peace impossible. It is almost as if they ought to (be seen as businessmen and) put figures on the table, this is how much we stand to gain by the continued escalation of your conflict in legal arms sales, what our companies stand to gain by governments favorable to us, if you can match or beat this price, we will let you have peace for awhile and concentrate our sales efforts in a different region while you rebuild your economies for awhile and can afford our more pricy but less likely to be used higher cost high-tech weapons.

Growth with and without height, with and without outside environment beings expectations (of what to grow into), with and without static environment rule changes in what is possible (changing or unchanging laws of nature).

Living in a better, more just world and having no one believe in or like it vs. living in a savagely unfair world and people thinking they are not behaving as savages.

Sometimes when reading or writing something new, or thinking about something (complex and unusual), a reverb builds and I experience that same thought or experience by many at the same time, glimpse how they did or will interpret it and connect the thread of beliefs and peoples in weird ways, building until I must shut it all out\, yet remember that and how all are connected by the same idea's thread.

Sideways time angle

Bus moving forward and sideways up, over, and down a hill (how forward momentum in differing directions would work with and against gravity (via incline and declines) to keep from over turning or increase instability). (oops. The was more.) (like?) circus motorcycles in balls, amount of forward momentum to keep from rolling down, how that momentum is used and redistributed against gravity.

N-objects and z-objects (reverse and zero gravity objects, as if were possible mixed in with regular objects)

Outside total view on all events (ring) (all possible events also if applicable) in ones life touching and being affected by ring of others perspective on all events in another’s life merges from a different view, both center into a common potential perspective as well.

Aggression in cultural instruction. May be biological as well. Can it be "taught out" of cultures? Is aggression necessary for survival, (it is) a benefit in most cultures and leads to more food, better chances of survival.

Psychology of people changes over time. Newer theories often judge previous cultures and eras by psychological models far removed from how people thought back then.

With our culture via our one-upmanship, my-party-penis-is-bigger-than-yours war-mongering politicians (Bush, Cheney, Hillary, Lieberman) and "free press" inoculating and slow-warming the public to ideas like pre-emptive wars because "we have reason to think some other country might attack another country someday" justifying us attacking and invading them today (Iraq, Iran) threatening first use of Nuclear Weapons (France) to *deter* terrorist attacks, secret kidnappings and torture of people we don't have enough evidence against to even justify charging them with anything, keeping people imprisoned for life without trial, and forbidding our "free press" from even releasing their names, is it any wonder the US and West are beginning to fulfill others opinions of us being or acting like a "Great Satan"? That we have lost all compass to be able to see our effect on the world is anything but good at the moment, and all to protect or acquire assets we wish to keep or get which happen to be (unfortunately for them) located in other countries as being a "necessary" evil for our economies and way of life, no matter if it sets the whole world on fire over there for our benefit over here. That is Jesus in action of course.


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To say we have an image problem at the moment is an understatement. To say we have a crisis of morality, leadership, and a supplicant unquestioning and increasingly propagandizing all-dominating corporate press, all willing to steer us down the lowest of roads if the money is great enough, and go on TV stating the worst of lies to line their pockets or spike their approval ratings, but hey, that is the price of wealth and power, right? It's what makes us better than them. We know, or at least believe, that they would if they could so we sure as hell can and will do it to them first to keep the ball in our court.

Cast net wider, pull it in to see what you've got. Disperse, scatter, (then) condense, boil it down, like panning for gold, restrained chaos.

Inverse dimensional horizons - you can counter-spin anything, even insect dictatorships

Descriptive (relational) fractions

Sanctuary

The potential for feelings and desire for retribution or vengeance is within everyone, even the most enlightened or meek. It can be kept under control and restrained by other feelings, but still the potential is always there. It need not be negative though. It can be to invent or create an environment where past misdeeds are far less likely or impossible to occur. That can also be seen as a way to get even or even the score as much as harming or punishing others can be. One is to create suffering, to cause it in the name of "justice" for some, the other is to prevent it from occurring or lessen its potential. When an individual seems prone to such behavior, we think just getting rid of that individual can prevent or reduce misdeeds. When it is institutional with their job description or societal, it is a lot more challenging on how to go about lessening such misdeeds from occurring. Not impossible, yet needs an impetus such as positively channeled retribution to keep one from sliding into the much easier course of defeatism, acceptance, and apathy.

If didn't invent numbers, language, matter, etc. why use? Ego extreme.

Pure time vs. thinking in terms of space

Why core idea (propagation, beliefs, etc.) Inventing aims, seeing all notions as castles in sand.

Cell growing into others, from other back into your past.

Smart enough to know futures and pasts and to walk away from both (distance oneself or identity)

Wheels, gears, balls, coming together in front of you vs. coming apart and reverse view of curved space like inverted rotation around a 3D curved "plane" (a triplane)

Whether internal only or external aspects of one, aspects of another consciousness. Varying levels of awareness and varying levels of consciousness. Tired.

One surrounding one, then the other surrounding, same as rotations, opposed (back to back) or facing.

Parts of environment before being known about (external potential only) and after being know about, before they exist (before they are part of the environment (of actual things), non-actualized potential), and after they exist (outside of (total) environment or system you are currently in).

Those running the world now see people as cattle, horses, beasts of burden, something like Man sees all other species, made by God to service our needs and purposes. What goes around comes around to bite us all in the ass, ideologically speaking. Only breaking that mentality will make other people be treated like equals again. No kings, no saints, no pedestals, just people equally needing to be fed, to be cared for, and always above all other things, to be shown, given, and entitled to equal respect in their lives, their dreams, their goals, and covet each individual's approval and respect as you would from any God or gods.

I look for truth, answers, and God, beneath each stone, in the lives, all events and experiences of the lives equally from the mightiest to the beggars and the lowest of the low's lives, experiences and events, and in other places down the road or on the other side of the Universe, in all these things, events, and places equally at once for they are no less important, all equally a part of my life and consciousness, my soul, God's soul, and the Universe's soul or essence, all are truth, all are divine.

All of that is what is good and bad about existence, you are a part of what you need and want to be, and equally at the same time, ultimately what those around you need you and want you to be.

To trump all, impede at detriment to your own potential for maximum growth and knowledge, cut at knees, to limit your own movements, lie and slander at cost of your own knowledge, reputation and ability to know truth. Tennis. Game. Set. Match.

Use of greater believability, position, of presumed honesty above another, to lie and take advantage of them knowing others will believe what you say over them. Un_ucking-believable that (such) people can still think themselves good people and that they did nothing wrong (when doing so) because others will not see it that way. That has crept into things behind the scenes of how people think for so long, they may as well and sometimes do think even if openly exposed (as blatent lying), there is nothing wrong with it. The hypocritical religions say you don’t need their forgiveness or understanding, but some god or religious leader to say it was OK while you keep your respectability, profits from screwing them over and your reputation intact. What good then is there in people or their repuations?


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Reversing premonitions, déjà vu, moments of apriori; holding back potential, creating events while blocking the rivers of change until catastrophic floods; stepping outside of thoughts sequences, seeing what wanting to do and thinking at any given time as an environmental component; supra-species consciousness, beyond even individual species as living things but (instead) types of life attempting to grow and creating component species to work through and exist through, in the face of consciousnesses that wide, even individual species lives are irrelevant, getting beyond the what to why is such contexts is as pointless as trying to surmount or steer, the largest pictures are as insignificant as the smallest frames, even species themselves can be nothing more than puppets or means to ends.

People unknowing or yet to even have considered metal landscapes and templates of their conscious patterns of expectations. See environments as stable things instead of streaming buffers.

I have been pushing for humanity to see and know it must change and grow its institutions and new ways of dealing with each other for the better soon if humanity is to survive other than in a perpetual hellish constant state of war Bush wants to make inevitable, or die trying. On both counts I seem to have failed miserably.

Whether pre-existant or existent away = factors not yet come together for present experience to yourself, survive independently or exist to others without interference. Multiple (futures) with your interference (interacting with and varying reality)(and) one without, multiples without, or one of each?

Rolling rock (or ball or tire) as consiousness contact points (repeating on self and rolling in line against environment)

Physical bodies, forms, as tires thrown off back of a moving train. Environment as moving (to tire) terrain it will hit and begin rolling in direction of the train, and how it (the terrain, its environment it begins in, where it starts, and will define and frame all of its possiblities) will affect its speed, length of movement, and direction, inclines, objects in the way… etc.

Life either confirms ones own best and highest aspirations or confirms ones own deepest and worst fears. Usually a mixture of both to keep it interesting. How and what creates that lateral movement between is interesting, if not yourself, but located externally within the environment.

Jumping off of trains (note: there is no 2D equivalent for best way as it uses all 3 dimensions but a 4D version would be interesting) – Ok, you are on a fast moving train and want to get off with minimal damage to yourself. In 2D 3D 4D 5D Thinking Made Simple’s Fun Smashing into Walls says optimal method is to channel forward momementum against gravity and let gravity slow you down and then land safely. Cannot do that easily if trapped on a moving object with no contact with “ground” to redirect as in previous example. Best you can do in a similar vein is to jump into wind and let that slow you down. Seeing as trains move fast and wind resistence is low, not likely to help much. Running backwards of train good idea to a certain extent. Faster running in direction that ground seems moving in relative to train lessens impact damage. Run faster than train, hit ground and roll forward. Run same speed as train or approximately same speed and plant it like a good dismount in gynastics. Most likely given train vs. human speeds and you will hit the ground only to roll backwards again toward train at fairly high speeds, head over heels. Best thing to do is wrap yourself in a bunch of inner tubes or tires and roll off as fast as possible off of back of train, or if no tires, turn yourself in mid-air so when backlash occurs, you roll sideways instead of head over heels. Thus with the design of the human body, less likely to snap neck or break spine. Primitive example of 3D physics but utilizes all 3 dimenisons in line with and against forward movement.

Life is about communicating your own life and perspective as best you can to live in others like telling others a dream even you will forget soon after waking, and needing others help to remember it for you and keep it real a little while longer, while knowing that continuation that is you, is your life, that which you call yourself, is that process of doing the same for those you have met and read about, and what you live to do for them, while you can and as best you can.

Bird example

Zombot

The most important thing for you to be today is to be not what you were yesterday. The most important thing for you to do or to realize today is what you could not do or realize yesterday. Remembering here is not there, now is not then, never you are what you were (or remember being), and what you remember can never be again. Going against that, holding the past, that is death. Working with it and using constant change is to live and accept being constantly a new person in a new place in new circumstances.

Direction moving (through curved 1D space on a ball with grooves representing timelines) = direction spinning in multidimensional plus time sense, all forward momentum = type of spin in any multidimensional environments

When moving toward antipole away from any point whichever direction (away) in curved 3D space, object would seem to be rotating in different directions to different people in different places because that movement = rotating on all 3 axises simultaneously from view of approximate sector of 3D space turning in all ways = inside out eventually so correct description, time processes seeming backwards too.

Eurotransmigration raw naked exps.


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Q-strings, globe spin

Going down road, book taught

It works fine on paper: Lawyerly unrealities redefining the concept of truth: Rethinking the very concept of law when it exempts and is written by and for the most powerful to gather and maintain more power.

Catholic inquisitions, protestant purges of catholics: European countries nation-states' homogeneities are living histories written by the heirs of mass murders to attempt to positively spin their forebearers legacies and booties from all who thought and looked differently.

What constraints over reality and behavior are real and what are cultural.

Myth-based parallel quasi-realities shaping belief and perception of reality.

The idea people want a fair and just world is outdated and naive. People love the unfairness, the imbalance, the constant screwing over of the weak, the poor, and less fortunate as long as they can be let in on the exploitation and control over (the) law writing to conquer their (own) opponents by pen and social structures to make them dance to their tunes too.

Glove – superstition

Your life is always aimed toward something. Aimed by your intents, your abilities and inabilities, or aimed blindly, it is always aimed at something whether conscious of it or not.

Whitewash N.

Being and communicating, some ways (the) same thing, different on what can be and is (communicated).

No fear of the sadists in charge, they are my glove.

The past is built upon a pedestal which is created and maintained by diminishing the improvements and greatness of those living in the present to see themselves as subservient and less than those in the past whom they revere. Those who will most understand this will falsely embrace the past and tradition to gain power and amass great wealth by “passing on” traditions they merely use as a way to control those who truly believe. The more hypocritical these leaders are, they can get away with any amount of hypocrisy, killing millions and keeping nations impoverished and claiming to do the work of Jesus, living in mansions with servants and still quoting how Jesus said the rich are as likely to get into Heaven as a camel through the eye of an needle. Robertson in saying to cut welfare benefits to the poor said (roughly) Jesus loved the poor, but not these (kind of) poor. These are the miscreants which can subvert any good words or deeds to their own ends and rule others by their willingness to deceive and others willingness to be deceived.


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There are many things Humanity is not ready to believe. That does not make them one iota less true. This may sound like a repudiation of relativism but it is not. Some may believe what most would not accept. Even if no one might believe some indisputable physical universal truths today, nor ever realize them in humanities timeframe, such notions, ideas, relationships, equations, still may exist ahead in a venue just never embarked upon, yet may or could be one day, if there is more to the world than what we do or can or will believe someday.

Breakdown of community, no free (without payment) exchange of goods and help. All (people are) isolated to be economically picked off one by one. Breakdown of trust replaced by intolerance and suspicion and fear leads to breakdown of free exchange of ideas and strained communication and relating to each other in anything more than superficial (ways) and false.

No longer deserve honestly elected (that because the people of the USA are not bothered by the false and criminal rigging of elections that are not even considered criminal acts anymore if once they are in power, they can decide not to investigate themselves or how they got there, if the people continue to accept this as they have, they have willingly forfeited the right to rule or even have any say in ruling their own lives. Sad but true. They are *ucking sheep.)

Like pods side by side, each immersed in circumstances blinding one to the similarities we hold outside of a virtual world of identity through history, real and imagined, drives, socially programmed and biologically programmed, and wishes, part of the packaging of circumstances, yet also clues to what lies outside the box or pods of circumstances of time sprung around you and holds you in it, in all your life's moments at the same time. Descriptive of time as experience tracks, partially predetermined, you are helpless to change other than to know it all (all that you can do or be given the circumstances you will and might encounter) and try to set your sights above it all.

Skimming over superficially the tops of most peoples beliefs and types of thinking and organizing thoughts, beliefs, goals, and values, is important to an overall view of human consciousness and direction. It need not be that inaccurate if gleaming accurate synopses because too much detail in any field of study inevitably puts one into traps of babble and irrelevance which furthers the discipline into further more marginal sub-sections which literally can be expanded and further divided infinitely. One must always stick to the most basic of questions: who is benefiting from this, who is being harmed. Anything else is superfluous. Turning the tables and saying more are being harmed than the number of people benefiting is good depending on who they are and how they are in a different group than they are who benefits, is to alter ones appraisal of the value of some human lives as greater and lesser than others. That is constantly what societies do without staring at that uncomfortable truth. One of our groups lives, survival, or even just comfort can be measured higher than millions of others' lives, discomfort, suffering, or even outright exploitation and torture. Once you get comfortable moving the balance away from the middle, the slippery slope gains speed which is progressively harder to stop or even slow down.

Ruled by the dead (3 definitions or sense of)

From optimism of doing cities retrospective to the devastation of (the) idea of never writing again. A swing that hit a nerve,  that without a voice, you do not matter and ultimately do not exist.

We now officially live in a country where the President can break any law and talking about that publicly can send you to jail.

People are:
   1) a physical body of a particular size, shape, and abilities;
   2) a particular point of view or way of seeing or perceiving things;
   3) a pattern of behavior or type of approach in dealing with new
         situations;
   4) a set of memories of past occurrences which define 2 and 3 and
         contribute to a sense of separate “identity”.
Most of these are determined by the outside environment or interaction with it, but 2 and 4 are affected by imagination. A sense of desire of future occurrences which comprises identity (which) can comprise identity as much or more than past memories is not imagination, it is biological and environment driven as well, but cuts across and in some sense drives and overrides or influences all other aspects (1-4) (to create, guide, contribute to, or control future potentials to occur in actuality). The will is paramount.


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Living things grow or are grown to fit or fill a specific function within their environment.

American exceptionalism:
    1) Weapons
    2) Military expansion
    3) Election fairness
    4) Media consolidation and bias
    5) (Willingness and need to obey) International law
Self-image and media image vs. facts and other countries perceptions

A dictatorship openly expressed and known would be better than the coy wink-and-a-nod dictatorship we have now which whenever it chooses tries to pass itself off as a democracy where the public will is effectively and presumably, if effective, perpetually controlled and malleable to the suggestion of those who control all branches (of government) plus the press plus most pro-establishment pro-globalization governments which are whatever they may be called in their own countries, all the same dehumanizing “Suck-every-
last-drop-of-life-from-anyone-weaker/poorer-wherever-you-can-find-them-
efore-another-country-beats-us-to-the-punch” party philosophy. If it was a self-described dictatorship or plutocracy we could hope it might one day step aside and allow free, untainted, uncorrupted elections to occur to parties not on any payroll, never mind all on the same payrolls (Democrats, Republicans) as now. The hypocrisy steals all hope effectively from the future as not only are we not allowed to aspire and work toward a better more democratic future (type of government than what we have), but we cannot even (justify organizing to) work for achieving the democracy we have “in name only” since because we supposedly have it, how can we replace it with one? Since it is here now, go home, be good, play nice.

When different people imagine and lock on to a common future.

In regards to “Q-strings, globe spin”, XYZ (axises) walls in a hypersphere spin, each divides up 2D or 3D spaces in half (one line/wall wrapped around in an orange-peel shape) in “room” tunnels being reversed at the antipoles (spiral floor like Guggenheim, ceiling = floors).

Everything actualized now and yet to be is inherently made of potential. It is manifested differently, potential for experience and knowledge at certain points in time for different consciousnesses. Limiting others' abilities to know and interact with parts of their environments to control them by what they know is the most inherent evil in this system I know of, (link to life2.htm) and what by censorship and culture, not only do all governments attempt but is verily what they are built of and feed on to keep (their members) (seeing themselves first and foremost) as distinct and separately defined as (apart from) the others ideas and values which its own (members) might otherwise one day prefer (other cultures systems or values), and decide many of these other attributes make more sense, are more just, or are preferable, more ideal, or just better suited to now compared to their historical  baggage used often to weigh them down and keep them in “patriotic ignorance” of the outside world, and away from those ideas which might be better suited to who they might wish to one day become.

Just as one could say Bush is giving the world a taste of what it would have been like if the Nazis won WWII (one could say through Paperclip they did, the government or ideology it adapts to is merely the host which enables it to survive and mutate, is “progress” too and the countries and peoples are irrelevant and secondary to the “research” and “advancements” which are more important than even their own people are), we are also getting a taste of when Germany decided it no longer was bound by international commitments to the League of Nations, merely because it was in a greater position of power. The main difference between now and then is the US remains within the UN, though it says it is not bound by any rules or laws, procedures, courts, or enforcement mechanisms (against itself) it does not like, and all other major powers are either afraid of stating this obvious truth of what is going on, or are simply on the US payroll, willing to go along with anything so long as the money, directly or indirectly through contracts, trade, and business interlinkages, keeps rolling in at a greater rate than if this was corrected. It is for most countries a combination of fear and greed, and the US plays it well, both carrots of lucrative trade deals to make their leaders friends and supporters rich, and sticks of regime change, electorally (with boycotts and disrupting the economies of administrations it does not like) or by force of arms. But what happens when as now the treasury is emptied by corruption and we have only nuclear sticks left to keep the rest of the world in line to how we wish them to behave? That leaves only fear, but fear when persistent enough breeds people who grow up without it, and all the psychological warfare and conditioning cannot prevent it. The greater the downward push of new forms of oppression, new generations will learn new kinds of bravery and invent new methods of standing up to it.

Potential passing through grates or slits of intersecting and opposing aims, or goals of others creating what that potential manifests itself as according to those circumstances of actuality at that moment in time, at least (in?) accord with perception which by definition ignores alternatives. Thread with Q-strings and above (paragraphs) on cultures, goes through both varied topics in different ways.

Nothing is scarier than that what so many view is new, yet to be, vibrant, potentially world altering in a positive sense, is viewed through a lens of the past, of more savage times rules and beliefs passed on by intent of keeping all henceforth times to revolve around their lack of vision as much as their insights, blind to how their knowledge about the past is their frame from controlling their own futures and from dreaming their own dreams, new and alive instead of dead.

These extremists rise to the top because of their willingness to kill, to silence and control all other views, but use hitting them over the head with the past as their own personal path to power, hiding their inability to find anything newer, better, which could potentially stand on its own without that crutch of playing the card of, and subverting to their own ends, unquestionable traditions and unconscious customs.

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Spiral floors of time, later knew more than previous, or future, previous knew more than later, perspective wrapping and other knowledge requires unlearning wrongful or more limited perceptional templates, wraps back around floor of one not knowing is ceiling of the other further on in time like floor=ceiling can be in curved spaces.

More knowledge of past often limits, precludes and prescribes events yet to be to conform with its legacies, willingly or not. In relation to it also by definition of. Only letting go, losing knowledge of it, is to be free of its reach.

For every “new” thought, original idea in ones mind at one point in time is just the surface of a spiral of potential of that one point in times' perspective control over influence future times to remember it, (a “new” thing to influence future times), a shadow (ahead), and also reaches back in time as events up to which are also defined by it as well (as “new”) in a wrap around sense of (the) absence of knowledge meant to limit all before its realization as “newness”, the taking away of knowledge for the purpose of realization at a given point in time later, “floor of one as ceiling of other” aspect.

Successful complete healing of body without scars or aging wipes away effects of the past, the wear and tear is identity, the past's mark on the future. The ability to reset and start fresh unhindered by past events is the fuel of events which we hope will be. Combined and imagined past (from different pasts) and one destined future, or one  definite past and (more than one potential) uncertain future, are the perceptions of existence (and time) which surmounts and obscures a greater reality without the dualities, where both (opposite poles of thought) are the same wall which wraps around on itself and through itself as a mobus strip or Klein bottle.

To want to understand something later, like it or not, is agreeing to the organizational structure which says you must not know it now. Not caring is a triumph over that structure, but one without victory as it is without substance as well as (and in the same sense as) without possessions. Possessions are substance but by being more real in one sense, they must be temporary, having then not having, to create that reality which is either fleeting, transitory, dog chasing its tail, or not existent by never being actualized at all.

Whatever exists regardless of its reality to itself, which can only be known in a different sense, is either what you wish to interact with or avoid interacting with, to control (the possible effects with it) or be surprised by it, by giving it a measure of control to surprise you, a weakness (for you) with the potential for unlimited joy. Control = sameness.

Laws for sale: When/how police, criminals, politicians, and moralists (religious fundamentalists) all work (within a social structure of new law creation for the purpose of growing the complexity of the structure itself, making even the criminals richer) for each others benefit against everyone else.

Difficulties pretty much happen by themselves, by the factors in the environment which come together to create them, as does your ability to deal with them or to overcome them. The only thing that is really hard is the toll it takes upon you by the experiencing of them, but the toll too is fleeting.


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Is the US trying to or has it succeeded in nullifying the UN Charter and rule of law in regards to its role and actions as (in the same ways that) the President may have in holding himself unaccountable to legislative oversight? Is the US' breaking or ignoring international treaties becoming as easy and accepted as Bush's breaking or ignoring laws and Constitutional guidelines? Are some individuals and nations defacto above the law and is a lack of opposition among Western nations and political parties tactic acceptance of this “necessary evil” of central power and diminished real democracy and lack of meaningful debate in challenging this “unchallengeable” mindset?

The only reason what they did illegally yesterday is talked about today is so they can inoculate the public to prepare them for what they want to do which is even worse tomorrow, advancing the conveyor belt toward making more unthinkable crimes less shocking, then debatably reasonable, and then ultimately legitimate, and even a necessary component of the world they have built up around such once “horrendous” unthinkable deeds. We are not only being trained to think the unthinkable by degrees, but to accept it as inevitable and just.

That what I “learn” is things that I have always known but not able to understand in the same way as when circumstances actualize the solidification of that potential knowledge into temporary present usefulness or utility prescribed by those circumstances, more a set of events coming together than a group of objects, into a “reality” of occurrences separate from what did not occur, is one perspective upon it. That such knowledge requires more time and greater expansion of thinking and more active thinking capacity is not necessarily the case. I was not ignorant of these things before, just hopeful it would not become the path to be played out. It is the “lesser actualized is greater in potential” aspect, even when what is actualized later seems to have greater depth of knowledge and abilities. To have known beforehand, that it did not have to be this way and should never have come to this, that such things not actualized still exist in ways that we, most, do not perceive, and that all ages of yourself contain the seeds of all you might do on a greater reach forward than you can possess later (in hindsight or when looking back), as well as greater ties (in the past) to “reality” and other paths and pasts which created you than you can possess later (earlier more predetermined and outside of your control environments), having become (later) more conceptually cut off from the “actual” past by greater conceptualization and “understanding” of it. ALL reasoning is ultimately subjective, false, and further from the truth. Truth is what others feel  and all will forget to feel the more they “think”.

Are your lasting achievements dependent solely upon others to make them more than what they might have been, a fish-eye look upon a certain past which could have been any other from the point of view of any potential other person in any potential future? (In other words, are the achievements dependent upon the building up or praise of others later to make the valuable? If forgotten or if the world was destroyed the next day after you did them, would they have great value or is that value dependent upon getting others to repeat them endlessly, by expanding upon them or recounting them? Most “value” is just conning others that what so-and-so did was better than they could do. The “value” is created in many cases by others and not in the originating events.)

Sure we all theoretically prefer to have peace over more war, but only if peace is at least or more profitable than continued war, and it never is. The benefits of peace are spread out over many, benefiting all equally. War concentrates the benefits into the hands of the few, the whole point of profit, and the many who lose, lose all, their lives, their lands, their valuables, which drives up the potential spoils and value of the possessions of those who remain untouched, their assets appreciating to buy or steal from those recent, and soon to be, dead.

The media stranglehold likely to get us all killed, the public debate in America, when existent at all which now even this is not, is which party's “different” “Bold Ideas” to get us out of the world crippling downward spiraling situation, with machine-like unthinking polls and pundits alike whose thinking processes are limited to left, right, and now the “neither left nor right” neo-con neo-fascist “majority” ideology, which of these ideologies' jockeys, these cookie-cutter prepackaged types of ideological state-approved islands of thinking embodied in parrot talking suits, out of whom which one of them should try or can bring about a stable world in light of constantly escalating weapons of mass destruction, both present ones and damningly new types to come? The blindness and myopicness of it all is both frightening and hilarious at the absurdity of it all. Cheers.

Money-lending and “devil wanting to buy your soul for cash now”, more great ideas given to the world by Jews-Christians-Muslims.

Strong ideas vs. weak ideas- ones you sense have strength or deeper wells to future times you (or others) will deal with (them again) and expand upon them later or ones you know may be more formed and complex now but will have no effect on future times or thinking.


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Seeing life as the drive to do things, to create events which others and yourself will re-experience at times in the future creating new events which is a doubling-back of those later times upon what you do and say and think now, straining to create relevance in what you do now to yourself and/or others in the future. Without those drives to create and experience, life fades to something else. My pinnacle when I achieved contentment, did all of what I thought I ought to do and say, fulfilled what I thought to be all my drives and purposes, freed from all wants and desires and designs on future events or would-be events, something else came to the forefront and said, no, its not over yet, this is not all there is, everything is not done yet. Thus my “rebirth” of sorts. To say this was contrary to my previous aims of what my life was about gets into messy ground both for those who take a strictly biological view of life grounded in the laughingly simplistic psychological models, as well as to those who view things in some spiritual models, that I somehow became tainted away from my original intents and purposes and began to seek to destroy what designs or intents I had on and for the future my whole life previous to that. Those are all “outside” views, ones in textbooks or religious books which go back long, and try to spin or bottle what people think into these prescribed patterns. While not knocking these templates of how things can be interpreted, they are limited. My new directions are not contrary to previous ones, merely adapting as the world is adapting outside myself putting me where I hoped not to be, thus wanting to do more than I hoped I would want to do. Limits are a good thing and ought not to be completely thrown aside lightly, yet something else emerged and needed to be acted upon because external events required it. The physical changes were extreme. Vastly improved health, mind, and reasoning abilities, and overall health and metabolism sped up over months to levels surpassing when I was 16 and peaked. My 'aumakua stage began. I could remember things which had not happened yet as if they had. It was really weird. Now I can reread many things written in my life over the years and see the drives motivating me to have written them, what I was trying to convey to others, what I was trying to work out in my own mind at the time, what knowledge or insight I was grasping towards as defined by and adapted to the current events and experiences of my life and others lives I knew at the time, an outside view of all I was thinking and how to project that onto future times and tie them to past times of things I had read from what others also read (and thought in the past before), expanding the common ground of different authors and different cultural sources, and try to make them relevant for different potential cultures and outlooks people might take in the future. I can see that from an outside perspective now because I can stop it, step outside of what I had thought to achieve with my life, everything I had been taught to and wanted to believe and achieve, and literally try to spin or put all of that in any other potential new perspective by how others in other cultures and other times might view those intents and drives, those perspectives and “truths” in relevance to their own lives and times. Even though this outside view is interesting, it is ultimately irrelevant to me. We need drives to wish to act upon our environments, to need something external to us to try to shape and mold to a form we choose, yet neither the “before” states, the “after” states, are ultimately real or relevant. The only thing that is truly real is the experience of the attempts and experiences that result in ourselves and others, and finding out or searching why we try to do or experience these events now, and more importantly, why we wish them to remain as templates for experiences of future potential others when what we can imagine for them is flawed and limited compared to what they can imagine and do better without knowledge of us. 99% of 99% of what we know, think, and believe, the “justice” and “rightness” of our (governmental and cultural) systems, is purely flawed, yet we try to strangle future generations with these limited and lack of perceptions, with these unjust and hypocritical “institutions” without daring to throw open the doors and say go for it, beat me, show me why all I know or believe might be wrong, why what I think or these present institutions and types of educations might be irrelevant to or in the future. Lacking of the capacity to do that is why what we think without that in mind becomes truly irrelevant. Projecting that blindness upon future generations, by not opening the debate, throwing tradition to the wind to see what might fall to the ground vs. what might fly, this is why most of what most do, we are lucky if it is worthless and not worse than worthless, and best if abandoned by others in the future. Forced undebated “educations” equals ignorance. Teaching others to know the past, to know their own drives, to know and to let it go and step outside of it from time to time is to let them know the “ground” of reality, but also to fly and keep their sights on the times and worlds beyond those limited ways of reasoning and seeing that which we have not, those of us who have not learned to always surmount our own pasts and drives, within and outside of ourselves.

Threatening someone with killing them is not a serious threat to them if they want to die, or like me went through so many changes so quickly they find it hard to say what life is anymore, yet fortunately no one has a definitive answer on that here to say that lacking makes me deficient. What I can say is that life seems to want to keep me around awhile longer and though (I keep) learning much about others and how they think everyday, they are really far too similar to each other to get excited about them anymore.

Spirals and getting back out

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Criminals ruling a criminal regime fighting a criminal war to put Iraqi cities “accidentally" in chaos run by, well, more criminals.

Americans have let America down by their refusal to speak out and their willingness to be cowarded by an increasingly dictatorial and criminal police state. The world, all the free nations' governments, have let the world down by their refusal to do the same despite their citizens, those still unintimidated enough to do so more than Americans, who overwhelmingly have done so (voiced their disapproval) by and large to no avail (in affecting their governments support or lack of action against US aggression alone or by proxy, whether open and blatantly illegal (by International law) or covert and even more condemning than what is eagerly and boastfully admitted to.)

Those who have called Iraq Bush's Vietnam have underestimated him and the situation. Iraq is Bush's Chechnya. As long as he is in office, he will hold it at any cost while the cities are turned to (more) rubble and the people demoralized, impoverished, and destroyed while the rest of the world looks on helpless to do anything to intervene because they dare not get in the way.

Media (makes people) stupid (on purpose, this much disinformation and banality in the face of unprecedented serious world crisises cannot be accidental. Please tell me which celebrity is screwing which other one who used to be screwing someone else. This is “news”. The wars are optional and a downer.)

Puff them up to shoot them down – how (media) organizations build up the value of their critics to then embarrass and undermine their causes by the messengers they either put in place completely or helped (them) behind the scenes to have a voice to begin with.

Party purged State Dept. and CIA

Dumbing down the herd – Modern “educations”

Hub events of consciousness, experience, and perspective. Ring around the rotary of DeconU.

Time, probability, politics, and social customs.

Seeing your own life, all thoughts and experiences, as eternal to yourself, as a component of your environment, triggered by other events within that environment, that whole, is more difficult than seeing everything you interact with within your environment as just another component in your own life. This is the opposite of “that it is easier to see your environment as a reflection or necessary component to enable your physical self. The time definition (first sentence) vs. physical forms, a thing called a “life” vs. a thing called a “body” is probably the most integral (to a better understanding. How the 4 mentioned dual opposite points are reversed as different ones being easier to understand, with life (time) vs. physical reality.) To have a sense of self, you need time to look back on what you experience to remember it and (you) alter the experience by building up a newer revised identity out of what you remember and (by) the new act of remembering (it) (connecting them to new events you did not know at the time you were experiencing them which came later.) Without these new times stringing together multiple times, there can be no “reflective” self to be aware of beyond current perception. In regards to other people in your environment, it is inverted. There is only the current perceptions of them and experiences of them without directly accessing their memories (or their own sense of identity built up through their past memories of events), or sense of self they tell you, or you learn of them to attempt to gain predictability to their future potential events based upon your own remembered experiences of their supposed pasts. Ultimately without gleaming insight into their pasts via your own (building) past memories of them or of other similar people and events to associate them to, others in your environment exist only in the now, in relation to you, as you would exist only in the now if you had no memories of your own. By not having recollection of somethings past states, it becomes more externalized. The more memories and knowledge of the past (of it) shared and in common, the less distinctions between the “otherness” between you and others in your environment, or of the objects and the environment (as a whole) itself.



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Binaries, polarities, are to me gross oversimplifications. However when contemplating many things, they are useful and often sometimes hard to get away from. For my own (past) perceptions and desires about my own future, there was always the “good” reality where I fulfilled mostly external goals internalized through instruction to what I wanted the world to be. It was positive and sometimes noble, but positive for less than a majority for the sake of survival of “all”, all being in this case mostly those who would survive anyway, (whether) good people or not, and most are not and surviving longer would not necessarily make them more so (better). To follow that plan completely, even if those desires were more internal in me than externally taught, would in a sense not only make my life and all that would stem from it predictable, but (it) would negate most of what I experience as irrelevant were I to follow such an obvious predetermined course. To contrast that, there was always the “bad” reality, what I might become if I lost it (my moral bearings), became infatuated with power as almost anyone can be, and did wantonly horrible things, albeit for no doubt good reasons, at least as I would see it to myself at the time. Living too long no doubt moved me toward the latter, with less predictability and a far wider perspective, a gift of the bad things done to myself and others by my government, but it is not necessarily toward a bad end either. I can see and know where countless people did, might, or will go wrong, off-track, the mistakes are becoming obvious even if the morality is becoming necessarily obscured. Whose morality is always the question. Knowledge of other cultures, others' lives, others' minds and types of thinking, make morality more basic than “these people should do these things and not those things because “we” know they are bad to do.” Morality has to be based on future potential effects and most of the morality of what has become of Christianity is inadvertently to intentionally causing many to most of the effects (which) anyone else outside of that religion and many within it, would know to be bad things.
         So like the Universe we know and sometimes love, I try to stay in the middle somewhere between the zeros and the infinities, and try to find in each new moment (the birth of that) new road which leads to neither absolute path but one that best blends and brings out the best features in both. Both the world that I would relinquish all control to what I have been taught was “right” to be and to do, without the other extreme of falling into the trap of being so full of myself that I would wish my own definitions (of what is “right”) to need to be one day universally accepted by all to “prove” their value or my own worth. I may be forced by existing to need to do and to create, and of course want to as well, but neither will (what I do or create) it be all that I wanted nor all that it could be if I ignored all others' dissenting voices, no matter how ignorant they are, or in the case of those in power today, how ignorant they think they can make others to be.

Women have millennias worth of experience at keeping a part of themselves to themselves and not to reveal all even to their mates because doing so only leads to a complete domination and loss of self and identity, and (for some) what can only be described as cruel attempted decimation of their very souls by doing so, when to those who ultimately cannot be trusted not to take advantage of that. Everything else in their lives requires submission and compromise to survive. Their ability to give in but never give up, to keep hope stored away in a secret place untouchable and off-bounds to all, as frustrating as that can seem, in this feminine talent of breaking and remaining unbroken, there is the hope to stand up to a merciless government using psychology and the media to bend everyone every which way they want them, to serve their own purposes and goals. That is the ultimate male ego trip, to dominate, control, limit others means and methods to fight back and tell these twisted *ucks to go back into the hell they belong and quickly are trying to make the world become. To fight that requires the strength of will to keep your soul off-limits, that (something) must never be allowed to be crossed or compromised while also doing everything one can think of to neuter the abilities of those who would require (the development of) that ability, as a world where trust in the extreme is not a weakness or vulnerability, and would not lead to regret when more fully informed about those requiring from you such trust.



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7/1/06 11:15 am
What keeps me focused and on-track is the opposite of what others might expect, far from a love of humanity or wish to do good, though it manifests itself as that. It is the probably erroneous view that I would, if given the option, prefer to be a beach bum and do nothing much, and concern myself without worry about the rest of the world. It is not true, but thinking that is my version of the humility aspect of “Morality: Individual and Social.” By transforming my aims to making a world where others or myself can not have to worry about anything, that is my way of straddling both sides of the line and dealing with time. If you cannot live in a better world yourself, if there is not enough time or resources, build that better world as best you can for those who will come after and enjoy it and live in it through them and their lives. Try to live and die not to maintain the world you inherited, but to create the kind of world you would like to have lived in yourself. Have them enjoy the things you could not, and definitely not in a material sense but in a freedom sense greater than you could imagine. If you can contribute to making a world you would wish to be what you would enjoy, believe that you will know it through them and their eyes and their lives, even if they do not know or remember (nor are necessarily even biologically related) to your own.

7/7/06 8:25 am
The more a political party says it stands for life, the more people it can kill. The more it says it stands for democracy and promoting it and enhancing it, the freer it is to erode it and consolidate power to itself. The more it says it stands for liberty and less government, the more it can pass draconian laws, monitor what you say, do, who you associate with, and take away whatever civic rights you might have had, publicly admitting to it, or behind your back you never know about until they want something from you. The only thing that keeps the government's lines, the rhetoric, in any relation whatsoever to the truth of what is happening, is the Press, the Media, and they have now lost all compass and credibility. Truth, journalistic truth, now belongs to the highest bidder, and the liars, the most hypocritical, will always have the most money and the most power without a referee. The media is no longer a referee. It writes whatever it is asked to write and accepts payoffs, knuckles under to corporate or political pressure, and puts out one-sided government press releases as “news”, and shamelessly distorts, swift-boats (the modern equivalent of tar and feathering) anyone who dares to interrupt the feeding frenzy at the trough of money and power. Journalism is now creating false histories purposely.

7/11/06 9:35 am
Truism- Religion based upon life being the only thing that is truth, the only thing that is holy, the only thing that is God. Because it is growing, changing, words, customs, beliefs, they all fail and are only interpretations of the only truth, your life and the lives of others.

Purpose of living is to communicate your thoughts and ideas to others, to grow your own consciousness as best you can in a way which does not have a negative effect on others, but instead helps them define and know life for themselves on their own terms free of the conditioning cultures put on them to guide them to be non-thinking autonomatons saying words not their own, believing in things which are ultimately propaganda in why your country or religion is better than others, your people closer to “God” or truth, your values and political institutions better than others. Seeing through all such conditioning to how they (the current world institutions and powers) affect others lives, cheapen them, degrade them, anyone anywhere by limiting their abilities to work, to feed themselves, stealing from them if they are poor, or to instead see which sets of conditioning benefit all others lives, cherish them, nurture them not to spout slogans or quotations but to grow strong, independent in thinking enough to shake the foundations of all thoughts and words of what came before them and dare to improve upon them.

Origin of the Universe- that time is circular in a multi-dimensional sense. Like Hawking's example of saying what came before the Big Bang is like trying to go further north than the North Pole, in a circular or repetitive time universe, any point in time and space would be the beginning and end point from some other perspective, any new consciousness born being the definitive new perspective's beginning, the end result of all creation before and after it. All perspectives, all consciousnesses, are equal in their rights to grow as independently from all others as they wish, and all others purposes in regard to themselves is merely to feed them the notions of the debates which they are and should be always free to accept, reject, or amend to themselves and in their own way as they see fit. Molding is cultural and necessary but upon reaching a certain age, regardless of political inferiority and standing, ALL ought to reach a level of understanding where they are free to challenge the rightness of current customs and laws by virtue of their interest and development in regards to such issues, and not because they are paid by others to maintain the status quo and keep as many as possible ignorant of their own voices, thus keeping them forever to be the work horses, the cogs in the wheels of systems intended to keep them ignorant and powerless. Each person ought to be seen as a potential king, a potential prophet, a potential Christ, if others would only help them become that, and ultimately each might or will if circumstances allow and demand that of them.

7/11/06 10:40 am
Problems with rule by committee- when something occurs which must be dealt with, all propose their own “solutions” which are at odds with each other so nothing gets done at all. The longer nothing being done goes on, the more people will say not doing anything is better. It has, after all, worked thus far. Generations may come saying, well this is tradition, this status quo is the way things should be. As long as the negatives are being shouldered by other peoples or in other nations, dragging out (stalling) any “solution” which would be costly to your own becomes the real goal never acknowledged while freeing them to earnestly “work on the problem.” Indeed, proposing alternative “solutions” merely for preventing any action to be taken, paid off or completely in the pocket of those feeding off of the crisis or imbalance. They ought to give gold stars for such disingenousness which the whole global socio-political system is built upon and thrives under. More than 3/4 of the world are defacto slaves with no ability write or influence laws they must live under and abide by, and those in so-called “democracies” are most often not exempt from that reality either. They just by and large are more deluded about that because there is more money concentrated there to go around to keep them unaware and distracted, disenfranchised or disinformed. So much money can be and is spent on such it is virtually one of the pillars of the American economy.



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Most politicians, cultures, societies, cannot help but view a little double-think as a good thing. Do as we say, not as we do. A little magical suspension of disbelief to keep the population happy and not likely to ask for more rights or less oppression. But too much of a good thing, people too well-trained in their “thinking” which defies logic and riddled with self-contradictions, and the whole of society can become delusional, that no problems exist if they are not acknowledged as such. America every day now sets a new record on how far that can go without coming apart at the seams. Wait long enough and not only will they shoot anyone who tries to sound a wake-up call, they would rip him or her to shreds like a pack of wolves on a defenseless prey.

Modern times and alternative media- If you read the truth, you have been compromised, tainted, and are suspect. If you speak the truth, you become an agitator and potential criminal propagandist. If you teach the truth, you are a seditious underminer of the legitimate government if it insists lies are truth.

No one realizes anything needs to be done because no one can tell them something needs to be done, and when someone does, they are free to ignore him or her, discredit them, and get rid of them.

Everyone, no matter who they are, how accomplished or successful, respected or learned, are but children, babes in the woods, if they do not realize there are limits on what they want to know about life and reality. These limits match closely more or less with what they do know. What they want to know is created by what they do know or ask or wonder about, (If not created because of it, then most certainly at the very least, the creation of the later experience of finding out about it because of that desire or expectation) and their minds not only are framed by those circumstances or experiences (they have lived through?) but also what those circumstances and experiences make them think they are lacking presently which might be more desirable to have (in the future) than that which they already think they have or know at the time they think they want them, or will want them, or will have them at some point in the future.



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Out of the impasses: Those power now who profit from war, lack of discussion or compromise, put on a facade of negotiations which are doomed to fail because their sole purpose is to obtrusify, stall, and provoke more anger at drawing out the conflicts to the last possible second to guarantee the maximum possible profit. Those who would replace these basically, to be fair to those whom their policies kill and maim, these murders, their replacements when compassion outweighs greed once again, if ever, will most likely be weak. Others will sense they can be walked over, made to compromise, agree to things to end the conflicts which should never be even discussed. Those running the show know this and use this as a shield. “See, we may get many people, thousands if not millions of people killed for no good reason, but we will save face, stand firm, and give not an inch to appease these “other” murderers who would try to take over as we are trying to expand our influence and control, or at least they would inconvenience this.” To quote that infamous political two-timer, Bill Clinton, there needs to be a true third way, not his misnomer for compromise of selling out those who you negotiate for as something it is not, as something other than a sell-out. What is needed is to put things on the table neither side would ever agree to or expect, not to slow, stall, or cripple the negotiations but to begin to reframe the debate beyond the polarity of either sides interests which both sides inevitably only seek to represent. The third party which should be included (in the settlements) is generations hence, ones who ascribe to neither's borders alone but will transverse both, belong to neither culture alone but whose culture includes tenets of both, one who will not see either side as a victor no matter how one-sided or grand a victory against the odds, but will be smart enough to feel only compassion for the dead (and those whose lives were ruined by the conflicts) and pity those who needlessly prolonged it for their own profits and political reputations. These potential peoples' views ought not only to frame the debates but ought to be the guidepost. It requires looking above the interests of present institutions, (present) countries and their corporate masters, to what will benefit those who are neither one of your side nor one of the other side, who will most probably despise both your sides and positions equally, but as a son or daughter despises the mistakes of the parents without despising the parents. For if these conflicts are settled now, others will be able to come to be, will be beholden and born out of that merging of beliefs and cultures into a common understanding, conflict and opposites (yielding) to cooperation and rebirth into new offspring. They will owe their lives to coming together or not know life by the present flying further apart. Either sides views and interests are always a zero-sum game, no matter the rhetoric, and never believe otherwise. Each side wants what is best for their own, and that is always less (control) for the other. But in the future, the children of both will literally be the progeny of both at the same time, and their aims are the only ones to lead forever away from an abyss in the present.

Environmentalist in a religions sense, product of environment and inseparable from, more or else.

Lack of otherness

LA riots foreign policy

Cult of celebrity

Licensed computer users

Bush trying to tie the hands of any successor (away from) any path other than all out war, destroying the US reputation as a legitimate government whose word can be trusted at all.

Mexico's Brown Revolution

8/3/06
Focus too much on future or too much on present. Feed people the seeds that could grow into crops of the future, or ignore them and their needs, not only for a future that may never come, but if it does, will require their deaths now as the fertilizer for people (later) who will be no better, no more alive, no more holy, than those who live and die to create that road and its steamroller which will mercilessly flatten them to build up and enable (maybe) some others (lives) some other day.

I consider myself a socialist because of all the types of political views at this time, it is the only one that speaks of creating social justice or at least lessening the injustices, not as a side-effect but as a matter of principle and as a principle goal. It is what is the future, and it is what is right. That being said, ALL those people who now call themselves socialists: extremists (communists), moderates, and pasty democrats, none have more comprehension about what I mean by the term than a pre-school child knows how to create a video game. They know what it should look like, and that it should do things they like, but literally do not have the first clue how to create one because they do not yet know the parts involved, the language of the terms, nor the amount of dedication required by countless other parts to constantly keep it not only in motion, but from flying apart at the seams. But they think they know what it is and superficially they are correct.

Swimming up into then down, buoyancy like backward gravity

8/5/06 10:35 am
I as me to interact with as an external vs. blur with other within you as defined by events yet to happen or as outlooks cutting across both, aware of events or third views which combine both perspectives, experiences or lives into another or others. Memories in common not happened yet or in past or in both past and future.



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8/8/06 10:35 am
When you interact with someone, especially meet them in person in real time, it is like two different time lines colliding, what I have called here “two cars made from the same forge colliding.” To know yourself as your interactions within your environment, you become defined by both the person's histories, each equally determining what will happen next, because of senses of identity based upon those (two different) histories. The less you need or want to control the interaction for effects for yourself or for others, the more you can learn about what is coming together because you are accepting it as a logical merging of two differing opinions of what events that merging of experiences and identities would create. The more you wish for a future state to become real, the more you selectively find in the present and in that person's past keys to spin that interaction to create the experiences or events you prefer to happen by trying to make them agree to prefer them as well based upon your knowledge of their histories and preferences for future events, or instead how to deceive or limit their choices by outright control over them. Stepping outside of both your preferences for future or concluding events and theirs, upon what will or should come from such a merger of timelines, of differing directions of differing identities, the more perspective you gain on what your own (individualized perspective) is and why, because it is only determined by conjunctions and interactions with others, both of like-mindedness and in opposition. Your own consciousness is something that only exists by and through (only in interaction with) other consciousnesses not yourself now, but also not that different, much the same as your body requires a physical outside environment identical in substance to interact with, full of and defined by others. Your mind exists only in a conceptual environment filled with others of the same substance and nature. Consciousness is a stepping out of the physical environment for perspective upon it. It is also possible to achieve an outside perspective upon the conceptual, or of consciousness as well. But too many only do this because they wish to control it, control others, and by doing so actually limit their own consciousness and perceptions in the process.

American genocide and wars of aggression

Fictitious intelligence, fictitious histories, and the wonders of compartmentalization in the Department of Truth.

8/12/06 10:15 am?
Rest stops analogy of time- like eating at different rest stops in different directions (choice) at different times. The people you see coming together at that different time and different place (coming from) different directions either yet to be or already did come together and now have dispersed, while you are eating depending upon which direction you go (or went) in.

8/12/06 10:20 am
Separating “did” from “might have” in others potentials pasts. Crosses from “might” to “will know” in your own future potential experiences.

Cross reference above with people leaving and never heard from, nor having communication with anyone they interact with, and those whose interactions affect nothing in your own life your whole lifetime long.

Diffusion and wider conceptualization

When governments make it clear they do not wish you to know about something, (and) that it is important and concerns you, don't think it may not be intentional. There is no easier way to get strong or independent-minded people to look into something.



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8/27/06 early afternoon
The idea that all races will put aside their prejudices, their dislikes of each other, drop their ethnic biases and look at each other all as equals, possessing equal rights, be equal to each's own in terms of intelligence or cultural non-superiority, all of this is a fantasy. The only thing that can unite humanity for long to even begin to put a facade of equality or even the mere tolerance of other races and nations differences and right to non-assimilation is necessity for survival. Once it is deemed optional, once one-sided nationalism prevails, that “we” are different, special, and do not have to play by the same rules as others, once racial or religious groups put forward that “we” are the true (the best or ideal) ethnicity or religion for a particular region, it will gain steam and release a new cycle of violence, hatred, and recrimination which will feed on itself. Put simply get along together or die together is becoming humanity's only two choices. While thinking your branch of humanity, whether by race, religion, or by nation, can dominate or survive while others perish, that view when Moore's Law (that computers will double in power and decrease in size every few years) is applied to weapons, will make mass genocides inevitable without accelerated international cooperation, new institutions, and common non-U.S. tainted “world culture” building as fast or faster than technological advancements proceed. Failure to do so, hatred, mass murder, religious intolerance, ethnic based superiority movements, these will dominate all else, whether openly proclaimed or subtly while double-thinkingly proclaiming to fight against it, such as xenophobia in Russian nationalism and race in U.S. politics.

8/27/06 3:27 pm
        For better or for worse people learn how to behave from mimicking those around them. I say for worse because much depends on how lucky you are with those around you to imitate and shape your identity. Most cultures, not the least of which my own, are pretty barbaric in what they optimistically call a “culture” and their thought processes are so riddled with inconsistencies and hypocrisy that it is a stretch to refer to it as “thinking” at all.

        Most people are controllable because somewhere down deep they are motivated by a desire to survive, to have nice or pleasant things happen to them at some point in the future, and to avoid or minimize the risk of very very bad things happening to them which they are afraid of. None of that means anything to me anymore, less than most before and non-existent now. The only thing I that motivates me is to expose the truth before I die, and the consequences of that are completely insignificant to my feelings one way or another. Machine-like, yes, but in a good way and for a good reason. The lies now are pervasive and completely self-destructive. Only letting the truth out in a regulated but massive way which can begin to enable people to see what they are doing and have done blindly and maliciously through their unwatched and lawless governments transgressions of all its own legal principles, precedents, and morality, that is the only thing I live for and the sole motivation. All else is merely the road from here to there.

That how you feel is dependent on your ability to feel

To see yourself or person as action only, not a body or what instigates that action.

Thought carrier wave signal, packet request, thoughts like radio programs, broadcast and tuners.

8/31/06 5:45 am
Like down(load?) for revised action plans through circumstantial landscapes.

Body = stress vessel

Positional relationships above what is positioned including body and self. Same with others capacity for and of interaction, more what they are (positionally, relationally) than what physically they are.



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What past created your present is more out of your control. What future you choose as defining your present is all that you are interesting for, your perceptions of them, and your preferences for them. They are not created at some far-off time, they as past are a part of your present and a part of you.

Final sum consciousness track, looking back into components, part of all as each's DNA is comprised of many disparate life forms further removed away from you in time, yet all (those previous lives) exist in you today as yours will continue with others distant (from you) today, but will be equal together in another (person) tomorrow.

Ohana best possible future alternative, synthesis of Asia and West

Taking what abilities and knowledge others freely give, not forcing, consciousness savings bank.

GW messed up for me a perfectly good lifetime of doing nothing out of the way. I cannot really complain too much for he threatens to mess up several billion other peoples plans as well.

More in touch with the currents which created me and my life than most, expectations and hopes on both sides.

Neither A nor B- Pre-canned ways of thought dooms every country that cannot see past their cultural blindness and limited debates based on limited ways of thinking and viewing problems. If you are not growing politically, growing more democratic and decentralized, (then) you are dying, you just see the few on top and think your culture will prevail. They will simply move their assets abroad as even formerly rich countries become poorer and (their populations) clean someone else's toilets and suffer abuse by them as they did to others previously.

Where Sakharov meets IZ- You do what is expected of you so you can do what you wish or what you think is right, or do what is expected of you in a way that is of your own choosing and style so that it is not so apart from what you would have wanted to have done anyway, in sum or in total.

Insert remind myself

That there is more that people do not know than what they do know, why that is and isn't the case. There is what you are currently experiencing or perceiving, what you can currently perceive or experience through remembering and anticipating, and what you cannot currently experience as happening, or having happened, or will or could be happening, and what you cannot imagine or remember yet.

“If you stay, they will kill you.”

Forced to play a rigged game, too many peoples' ultimate circumstances in life.

The media purposely reduces people to caricatures they create and control, and if they stand against the media, or the party (or business interests) they represent, their caricatures take the form of propaganda monsters to rally the public to destroy them on their behalf.

Not all waves about to break can be seen from arising in and out of the past. One must learn ways to see sideways in time from angles most cannot imagine seeing from to gain insight into things as easily as those who look at the past can connect that to other things that must happen in the future. Things are predictable but not preordained, and the patterns are simple but outside of most peoples' ways of perceiving and thinking about time.



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Sig last- (refers to the last line of my Sig, “You are at least as strong as whatever you choose to stand up to, and stronger than whatever cannot make you afraid”)Your life is or is framed by a set of expectations based upon past events you use to frame expectations of future events, and how you think you will deal with them when they might occur, and while they are occurring. Without such expectations, consciousness does not exist and we could not function in this world. Once you know your consciousness and attitudes (through these set-up expectations pre-dating the events) are shaping your reactions to this stimuli as much or more than the external events are, you can begin to lose your fear and take control of your life if you lose your fear of death and what others might do to you. That (fear) too is a part of your consciousness that only constrains your behavior to do good if you fear doing so will make avenues of expectations and events you are afraid of play out. When you lose your fear of potential negative reactions of everything else in the world any and all others might do to you for doing what you think is right, not for yourself but for others (I know everyone thinks that all the time, “I am really doing this for so and so or my children's future, etc. etc.” but when it costs you more than anyone else and benefits you not in the least, THAT doing things for others, no the hypocritical “I'm only doing this for...” BS people use as an excuse to get what they want), you literally surmount everything else that could be for the power to keep you from doing and improving, what holds you back, is simply fear of bad things (happening) to yourself and those you love, to be tortured, killed, or harmed. That is the only power others have over you and you enable it yourself.

Arrow of RCP


9/20/06 8:08 am
In one single instant, my mind can grasp the most intricate of designs, entire articles or books I or others might write either in detail chapter by chapter and a general overview, or even greater detail. I can imagine instantly chains of events involving many people (more experienced than just thinking about something that could happen) which could play itself out over years and sometimes live to see parts of them actually did come to fruition exactly the same way. Imagination some might say. But we all have it and we all use it and we all share in it. It is not to know THE future, it is to have an idea what we or others might do with just one future and because of those realizations, we have many possible ones. (link to shattering time). In an instant I can see many chunks with many details, yet none of them ever has to actually happen, yet in some greater understanding of time than most have, all of them will some “where” some “when” (the “” are to show the lacking of a word to describe sideways time “places” because we don't have a word for it yet). Even mutually exclusive ones stand side by side in ways most don't see.

9/20/06 8:35 am
My wills obstinance at finding one thing which defies it, refuses to yield, locked outside my knowledge and potential until greater and greater expectations for the future become locked in (the) struggle. Descriptive of anythings value or self-destructiveness, the notion if in power that all must yield, that in the pursuit of knowledge that all must be known, at any and all cost because one thing or fact defies you and remains forever out of reach. We all long to be challenged but we create the hurdles we must climb because of that longing. The friction that is created when we discover something exists to be had or known, and then made to believe we cannot have or know it, or must do many things to reach it, this creates all else and makes us all puppets. We may not create what exists that we will want to know or possess, but we create the desire within us to meet those ends and by doing so, create all the roads of events which separate us from them. People manipulate others so completely and effectively hands unseen simply by manipulating what people want,now a science, and by doing so lay a claim over their very souls.

The only 3 issues: Weapons (race) accelerations, Black op psych programs, lack of government (systems)

9/24/06 10:12 am?
“Democracy” used as a means for powers to overthrow regimes it does not like, then once getting a foothold (when the party they wanted wins) signs contracts turning over ownership to foreigners (who backed them), makes “constitutions” (to prevent this from being overturned) cementing the current “democratic” system in place (quotes there because the whole point is to make it impossible for people to change the system again), usually rigged to disenfranchise most of the poor, usually most of the people, from regaining power at the very least, or when they are “allowed” to do so, they most certainly are not allowed to change such past “agreements” or changing the constitution or the economic system of their country to improve it for greater economic justice and limiting elite control over the country against the US's wishes is considered an act of war (to us). All well and good some may say, but most of these “agreements” were signed by foreign imposed dictators and/or puppet regimes under occupation or influence of foreign troops. No one in the US or most Western countries would consider such “agreements” and “contracts” binding if imposed upon them under similar circumstances. Imagine if the USSR conquered us, had troops on our soil, appointed a leader for us who then sold to them all our resources at bargain-basement prices for their own “puppet leaders” personal bank accounts, set the rules for “elections” so that those who oppose this and would want to overturn it could never win. Seeing that would mean Americans could see the truth of what we expect from the rest of the world, and that is one mirror, an non-propaganda anti-distortion mirror too painful for many to dare gaze into.

Fearlessness takes back power. Fear and complacency surrenders it.

What I think of, what I am capable of knowing or writing is completely determined (and limited) by everything else going on in the world. Could I withdraw forever, who knows what I could know? But if you interact, your actions, your knowledge is determined by the interaction and what you and/or others wish that interaction to be or to lead to. Of this I am not blind and can plainly see how these currents running through us all line up to improve the flow and how they are impeded, but eventually the clots are forced up.



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9/27/06 11:50 pm
I need not fulfill others expectations, the environment, nor deny them and refute them as others can. I must surmount them. I cannot fight the environment, I cannot deny what people in numbers think they have a right to expect, however sheepishly those expectations were instilled, yet I can no longer be bound by those expectations either. Too much to do and too little time. I must break free without leaving, surpass without exceeding, accept others views while spinning them so they do not limit my knowledge as much as my actions. To know and accept the environment and the views of those within it, limiting, confining, constricting, yet at the same time as internalizing this into my own sense of understanding, doing it in a way in which I can surmount it instead of just giving in, to be more than a product and tool of ones world, but less than making ones world a product of oneself or will.

10/5/06 12:03 pm
Time creates a record or tape of events. Events when recalled shapes identity. Identity is an imprint made by previous events to shape expectations and control future events. Desire also influences future events. Controlling remembered events and desires creates predictable future events, transforms men and women into non-variables, predictable, controllable. Only imagination, sudden new goals not based on or influenced by the real or supposed past which creates identity, new interpretations of ways of implementing new or previous goals, gives hope of humanity breaking free of entire structures of society constantly studying and refining how to influence and control them. Shatter past to build a better future. Begin anew today in hope.

10/5/06 12:22 pm
My mind is no longer solely a product of past events which happened to me alone nor recalled through exposure of knowledge of others life's events alone, nor a product of instilled or inherent desires of, or for, or on future events for myself or others to experience or make real. It is beginning to gain traction on potential alone, potential which I or others can do or experience or know and actualization need not occur before knowing and being known. It is rubber meeting a much different and wider road, yet still bound or revolving around in a sense what is most probable because of knowing how identities are still dominating the mix. Expectations no longer spin me in the same ways knowing other potentials and others' potentials they do not and in one lifetime, most will or still cannot.

10:5/06 2:55 pm
The government's way of spinning things, myself as an example, works because they can limit people's exposure to selective facts which creates interpretations in the direction they choose. The ability to control which “facts” are known destroys any objective attempts at hearing the truth of anything anymore so long as such a government manipulates what is known by hoarding relevant facts which are uncomfortable, and things they have done and continue to do without legal justifications.



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10/8/06 2:04 am
Are not all things which we come to believe not things which we have a propensity toward believing? If not known beforehand but created instant relativism to presupposed pasts.

Hanging around to get a simple answer long enough to watch the world begin to tear itself apart, as if my having been dead would have made a difference. I know too much to buy into that crap even as other religious shit gets dug up for no logical point whatsoever other than making bad people more rich a few times longer. I am not like them, just unresolved and not willing to let it end that way. Ok, probably makes sense then. Exert or leave. Sucks.

10/10/06 1:21 am
Self-fulfilling aspect of questions, if you want to know something you must have some idea about what it is and what you would experience leading up to and after knowing. The question and answers are bound, arise together, and are outside of linear causation.

10/12/06 3:05 am
For some reason I always focus on a period a few generations from now. It really is as pointless and arbitrary as my own time. It is near enough to know, familiar enough to relate to, yet it is a matter of choice or preference according to who or what may happen at that time. We have to focus on a future to work towards, either within our own time or usually near enough to it where we can connect to each other as relevant, our aspirations to their sense of history. Your death or the destruction of civilization or of humanity are just arbitrary lines in the sand to give what came before them perspective via one end, which is not always as sole and definitive as it seems when seeing time's larger canvas.

10/13/06 11:28 am
Because I tried I sort of failed and also did not. The only way to really fail is not to try. The effects of attempt ([the "arrow of RCP" mentioned here above] at using the political asylum to get the government's attention and prevent worse mistakes) are beyond my understanding at the moment and hopefully are not as fruitless as things seem today. The future seems more fluid and changeable, and that is good, as events begin to take a new shape.

Stalin or Bush? (Quotes)

10/13/06 9:55 pm
I'm capable on a fairly regular basis of looking at the littlest things in life or culture from perspectives most never have or will consider, not only due to rapidity and constant wish to alter and improve how I look at things continually, but because I am capable with each new person I am exposed to how they think, coming up with new mixes and new outside perspectives on both as well. Never settle for internal perspectives on how you or they see things but how someone different than you both would see you both judging and misjudging interacting with each other. All of life and beliefs are interactive, using time and continually changing via interacting with other people. Even staticism is a form of change and action, that of trying to hold back the inevitable.

10/15/06 1:26 am
Because I am me, I recognize the right of no one to tell me what I ought not to know. It used to be my government on paper said no one had the right to control another's access to knowledge and by doing so, control them. Oh how far the mighty have fallen!



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People trying to play me and others expectations for what I might do is like riding a big wave. It has gotten so big that I cannot do anything now except try to stay ahead of it and steer as best I can, and try to have a good time while doing so. The wave has taken me places I wanted to go, enabled me to do things that needed doing, and when I was not afraid or intimidated by things on the periphery which never really matter, I did indeed have a hell of a good time. I see now the wave enabled me to be and that my only existence is when riding it, and was meant to, and never really had any choice. Existence is part and parcel of expectations. Whose is always the question as well as who is really playing who. If you think you are the one in control, ask yourself, who made the wave you are riding? I can trace mine back to before I was born into many different peoples lives to see how it had to come together if at all, and even with that hindsight and foresight into others waves source, I know the events I ride, that knowledge cannot change them and for all the “power” others have, they are helplessly trapped on their own waves of events. At least I was afforded a “top down” look at the sea or wave machine others unfortunately did not have. Anguish and lack of understanding are my only real complaint about this Universe,and have tried to give comfort through knowledge as best I could.


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Inverse 3D mirrors

What people knew and when they learned it.
What people experienced and when.
What people will know and when they will know it.
What people will do or experience and when they will know it.
(Beyond getting into peoples’ or societies heads)

11/11/2006 11:55 pm
Technology as fashion accessories (in a negative sense)

11/12/2006 12:00 am
Choice as who thinking like, perceiving and when or doing so without choice or choosing to be aware or not aware of (the) similarity or (of) perception of others [thinking ?? (nearly illegible)] (,) or perceiving the sameness.

 11/21/2006 1:46 am
A nation that does not know its own true past or its past from many different valid points of view is dangerous and imperiled. A nation that does not know this of its present is psychotic, delusional, schizophrenic, and ultimately lost riding upon luck and without either shame nor reason.

11/21/2006 2:00-2:30 am
          Americans basically may as well live on another planet than the rest of the world, one where our mistakes and transgressions of international law, elective wars benefiting us financially or in security, are born of good intentions when not righteous acts themselves.
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          Other nations do not think it is our right to tell other sovereign nations such as themselves, and European nations are finally beginning to see themselves on that list, of who ought to be “allowed” to run their nations, what type of government or aims their societies ought to have or be working toward, and are not or becoming not tolerant of our outright expressed “right” or need to change their transgressions of our unilaterally imposed boundaries for them by intimidation, bribery of local political parties or businesses, by force, bombings or invasions, by assassination, by black ops within their borders aiming to destabilize their popular governments or movements, and funding by arms or weapons groups which will ferment violence or war with them or within them.
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          This double standard of our right to “guide” other nations development while never once imagining any other country would be right in doing such “criminal” or subversive things to us or to threaten our sovereignty, our peace, security, or right to self-determination, this began with the Monroe Doctrine, at once both noble in saying colonization (in the Americas) is off-limits, but also that it is our right to “guide” half the globe to how we saw fit, which lead to unprecedented interferences and interventions which in effect through our businesses made us powerful through exploitation no different than slavery when at last we no longer allowed actual slavery, far after the rest of the world abandoned it (milking it to the last drop, the last possible dollar, the last possible moment).
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Not seeing ourselves as others might see us, not acknowledging how our blindness is intentional allowing us to transgress all of our supposed principles we preach that other nations must live by while we exempt ourselves from such civil behavior, free to wreck our will upon any nation on the globe as we had previously on the Americas, all the while profiting from it, it is now essential that we see ourselves as another nation may see us because, like it or not, they may one day not be so easy to brainwash as our own public is so eagerly willing to accept this deadly double-standard as right, true, God’s Will, or having any relation to any logical concept of justice for all, when it is judged by one nation operating in a vacuum of balance playing by rules if any other nation tried to apply to us, we would destroy them completely without mercy.
 This is why we seek to maintain an unmanageable military advantage, to keep living in a world where we are not bound by the standards or laws other nations are expected to live by in how they treat us. If only our public was allowed to see ourselves as other nations are beginning to see us, through how we destroy “unintentionally” countless others, we might redeem ourselves before it is too late.

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Messianic nationalism and double-think, Russian Nationalism and American Exceptionalism, the dreams that empires are made of.

11/21/2006
Strong America, corruption NSI

11/22/2006 5:15 am
(mostly illegible)

11/24/2006 7:21 am
Eddy (Mary Eddy Museum's inverted Earth map), starglobe (a inverted globe of stars visible in heavens), periphery inversion and both at same time from 4D perspective between both 3D examples, sliding perspective along 3D space but (just) outside of it, like flying above a 2D plane equally above it.

(drawing of  two cones together with where they meet a 2d plane representing a 3D plane, “begin” at one cone point, “end” at other cone point, arrows around it and the word “inverse”)

11/28/2006 6:50 am
Tip world only when considered absolutely necessary. All other times as much as possible, humanity voyeur.

Pong? on ball, curved environment playing fields.

Measuring and plotting curvature of curved 4D spacetimes in 5D, anti-curvature arcs outside (of 4D models).

Neither cause nor cure of others suffering

1:10 am (late December)
I don't do “things”, I do events. Deobjectify time into participatory interactions instead of concrete actions at set points from (only) one point of view. No nouns, fuzzy verbs which do not occur at one single point in time but continue to affect multiple other times from all points of view of all affected by each event and subsequent events (which follow from initial ones). None happen without others participation so all effects and originating events are participatory. Single outlooks on them are limited and useless in understanding them on any level other than the most superficial.

6:17 am (probably same day around Dec 19)
WIW not of this but need to use this to get it

12/24/2006 9:45 pm
Visualizing belief systems geometrically, how ideas of one person or culture stack up to others in same time and over time, core belief  “trunks” (tree analogy) of masses of people of unquestionable assumptions thought to be universal truths, cores, and branches in same time and other times.

Inverting environment of biological beings, seeing (it?) an extension of themselves as ranges to interact with and build concepts of themselves through (the external events located in the environment, not their “person”), a part (the components in the environment and events of interaction with them) of each (person, consciousness) to swim through as a fish and ocean are united to us from outside of both (outside the ocean, or the fishes environments) . Each part, fish, ocean, reacts to the movements of the other (fish make waves, must adjust to ocean's currents). Choices are all that is unpredictable, whims and wills and how they mix (with the environments and how they are created by it).

U-bend magnets, smooth transitions bending to inversions in polarity intertwined.

Asisfour's 3D Hangover Hallucination: Doing the space warp again, perpendicular style. (key to inversion explanation circles in/out and balls at front and antipoles and outside 3D space is (as?) relational.

12/26/2006 8:10 am
Not for things, experiences, knowledge, favor, power, nor to affect one outcome or another (getting beyond (common) motivational understanding limits)

12/26/2006 2:25 pm
The only things fated are those to which we relinquish our control over to others or to previous (past) versions or notions of ourselves, our convictions and purposes. When comfortable enough, hungry enough or desperate enough, to take the helm for a moment and own up to it, all else must deal with that, if not defer.

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If you wait for the world to get better, you (almost?) assure it never will. You either push it in the direction that you think it should be going in or watch while others choose their own directions, to usually their own personal advantages.

12/26/2006 9:41 pm
Carter's assessment (that the US is now the leading cause of nuclear proliferation, that other countries now think (rightfully so) they require nukes for protection from US first use (Bush) doctrine, “pre-emptive” wars against anyone we don't like or becoming a threat to our dominance) will stand if humanity long stands. It is fairly obvious to the un-misinformed. Because of ignorance, greed, and lust for greater power of a handful of men and the machinery of society that protected them unaccountable to any reach of law, it was the United States that at this time willingly, eagerly, and with utter disregard for humanity as a whole, opened the gates of Hell.

Post:Smokey the Burning Bush to George: Only you can prevent terrorist attacks or forest fires     12/29/06

12/28/2006 7:26 am
Most important bill, pardons, ordered to break law, anti-MCA, pardons in the air, political hitmen, blackmailers police ignore

12/28/2006 7:46 am
Consciousness, play, spontaneity, dreams, and the future past

12/28/2006 7:55 am
It could be said if I were brave in this environment, I would long ago be dead. Only the sycophants survive long. Some might think one can be brave and live long if one is clever. That is true, but always be wary of clever people. It is not long before they are fooling themselves.

1/4/2007 12:34 (am?)
To say that everything outside of yourself and your consciousness (at the moment, with (including other times or beyond the present, without in another sense) a time definition, you have no definition) is merely a trick to get you to know things, agree to things, actualize things, and become things you would not without that push, forgetting that such is how you came to be at that point to be pushed further by them now, is ultimately always a valid point of view, more grounded in truth than anything in physical “reality”.

1/5/2007 3:45 am
DeconU as existing in consciousness only

1/5/2007 3:50 am
On Falun Gong: Aside from it as a political movement being in a lack of political dialog one of the few lateral movements possible, though not exactly permitted, but possible, I am reminded of the potential of many more in the future to accept a deified Elvis Presley. Far be it from me in my time to say they in their time are wrong. Such is my pause in slamming Falun Gong as a bogus religion as it is not my culture, but a religion based on Elvis would be a corporate religion, with values like a menu comprised of what be considered that people might want to buy (or buy into). At best or to have a somewhat “solid foundation” there would be a core menu to build around and only minor changes over time. Elvis was no Jesus and Falun Gong's founder was no Lao Tzu (nor needless to say Jesus as he claims), but people should be free to find their inspiration where they choose, no matter how shallow the pool or patched together the ideals. At best a good theory or philosophy is built or founded on the best available sources at the time. On how or why it was conceived (as a religion) is important to me, but like even the corporatization of Christianity in many ways, its McReligions, it's origins are not as important to others, and as they can rightly point out on this, are always glossed over and mythologized anyway. Its social function politically and sociologically are more important than its origins, but it is nice when not a total patch job by wealthy interests from the start, even if they are all destined to finish on that note.

1?/16/07 12:41 am
Events of ones life, passed though in succession, remembered in sequence creating (our) identities (based upon externals) or coming from within oneself to create them out of thin air? Both are partially true, not just because others alter our plans and we choose from amongst external options. We are both part of a play, completely beyond our control in overriding, yet also then we are the reason and instigation of our experiences, (and) education or entertainment by it, the meaning (in a greater sense) is always made or found without (in and through our interactions with an external environment), but its purpose is always found within us.

1/23/2007 8:34 am
That it should be any other way (US losing sight year by year)

1/23/2007
Art chance to emulate (fiction as inspiration)

EU and “losing” Iraq

Non-interference by definition not right. Those who choose to interfere.

1/27/07 3:36 am
I like to think I have risen above all possible mistakes in a given time and set of circumstances, and for awhile it is true, but always can find new ones not traveled yet

2nd church (commission), (who must) ask for    [2009 insert: "The ideal way for this to play out, I acknowledged, was for those in a position to approve such things, ideally those who carried them out, to be the ones to call for an inquiry. In my notes at the time I put it as “2nd Church- ask for”. Later I expanded that a bit because if I abbreviate something a bit too much, I can forget what it was supposed to mean. More fully to remember it later, it became “2nd Church (Commission, who should) ask for”. I chose at the time to believe, as many I think did, that given the chance those who did the worst most illegal things under the Bush Administration, would when the time came, be willing to go public themselves. To think otherwise might have been more accurate, but who would wish to more accurate at the expense of giving people the benefit of the doubt to be so less human as to feel no guilt, no remorse, and be content not to come forward if given the chance, but to instead to choose to keep such things buried forever?" - 'More on Obama's reducing Torture to merely bad judgment, certainly not a crime,' 5/27/2009, TruthRevival.org]

2/17/07 12:40 am
He who can stand steadfast and fearless amongst the worst storms nature can throw at you, to storms everywhere, he will seem the hurricane.

2/17/07 4:15 am
Pouch rooms. Room yds

2/22/07 12:54 am
When the goal becomes to help this person or that, you become susceptible to compromising your integrity and values. Focus on all or (you will put) one person above (all else) at the expense of helping others. You may not be able to help everyone, but once you select one, others have you dead to rights for manipulation, blackmail, and (illegible). Prepare yourself to help all equally or watch as you are repeatedly forced to make ever worsening choices because of love, admiration, or respect. (Illegible), all that is good used against you.

2/24/07 12:16 pm
Truth: (in/of) history, government, politics

Post:Ascension 4 years after    2/24/07

3/5/07 6:00 am
M.O.C. same view, before birth. If not, (if) gone, then same after. If (either), which (view is actual), why, once understood, relevance fades. Only the question, answer points only different interpretations.

3/5/07 6:15 am
Living with both interpretations at (the) same time, seeing it both ways at once until one collapses

3/5/07 6:35 am
Postcard away, flattened, even 360 degree view (is) 2D except curved “away” dimension, how with (it?) see, hit things, view compressed at one moment in time, from another’s point of view, surround or from within, seeing (both) at same time

Post:Hawaii, my Natural Environment, the Perfect Environment, and Reset Points    
       3/18/07

Post:Warnings are good, threats are bad, unless the same thing    3/22/07

Post:Rays of light, but before the dawn or darkness?     3/22/07

3/30/07 12:00 am
Consciousness and moving train of biology and evolution.

3/31/07 11:25 pm
One of the most simplistic things about how people think is that you can have truth over here on one hand, and what you believe over here on the other, that they are not connected and are autonomous. Not to say they are the same thing, quite often opposed, but never not inter-dependent and in a sense creating each other by opposition or by cooperation. It simply requires a greater complexity of thought than most would wish to consider, and many are not only so not disposed, their minds are not taught the required building block concepts. Zen (Buddhism) and some other (methods of thinking) can lay a basic foundation, but some types of understanding truth quite literally requires compartmentalizing all you know and think of, all you may yet, and interact with truth as something not apart from yourself or your life, but merely one interpretation on realities that go beyond existences and one set of histories, yet are reflected in them smooshed down as a 3D world is to a lake reflection or a mirror.

Hawaii, Christianity, hostile takeovers, poison pill cultures

TV technologically inferior to reading

Ease, percent of difference, 0-1%, 50-51%, or 99-100%, lethargy or ball moving, or nearing completion, slowing or aiming beyond mark (100%)

Post :Without truth ammo, smear them with 'friends' who are their shrinks      4/4/07

4/5/07 8:33 am
Moving forward in perception through the pasts of others embodied in them and in the environment, books, films, objects of art, manufactured goods, etc., created by them, brought to you by others for future events of your life to interact and resonate with, creating your future built upon the pasts of others as your future events, from another point of view, are already the pavement others will have moved through to define themselves by (and through your own past as well, through all moments previous anticipation of and wishes for your present to give perspective and meaning to them)

TR Post: Wordplay- TruthRevival.org's First Post    4/6/07

4/09/07 8:00 am
Call it arrogance if you will but I believe that any country would be lucky to have someone as smart and creatively intuitive as me among its peoples. But I do demand something in return for that level of allegiance. I demand that it work toward a more just global society and not for the benefit of its own at the expense of others. I demand that it be working to increase understanding and acceptance of human rights and not be actively eroding or disparaging them. I demand this because whatever mandates they (governments) may or may not have from their own people to do what I believe are negative things, preying on the weak, exploiting them, torturing, promoting torture or even failing to denounce it and stand up to nations that torture or rig their own elections, no matter who they are and how grave the repercussions may be for doing so, I would then not agree upon their right to rule for they would not be working in humanity's best interest and that would preclude as a maxim, not even in the best interest of their own citizens for they are no more, and no less, humanity. They (citizens) need to know and see things in this manner and they need governments who ask them to see their actions in such a light, to promote decency, rights, and true democracy at all times in all aspects of their governance.

4/11/07 9:45 am
Sitting on explosive growth potential yet forever limited by (the) environment to let it out in small doses. Eventually (the) environment must begin to change to keep up or will redirect it else-whens.

TR Post: The No Maas Moment Approacheth for the Washington Press Corps
            4/13/07

4/14/07 10:10 am
Only after you wake up was  a dream just a dream. Only after you die is a life a life. While ongoing and within them, they are something more, undefined, potentially anything else. Then what they are is not written yet, and inside, outside, or post perspectives do not apply.

Post: My New Dodeca-Toy and How It Potentially Aligns My Futures and Past
           4/16/07

4/16/07 3:24 am
Visualized squares of squares in squares (3 squared + 4 squared =  5 squared) (and then cubes of cubes in cubes) pictorially

4/20/07 12:25 pm
Amazing those who defend America's reputation blindly like a championship trophy that came about in a rigged tournament rather than try to make it (that great reputation) true today [2014 added: by doing good things and not doing the horrible things, eroding the concept of human rights, advancing the elimination of habeas corpus, advancing assassination by presidential fiat, the rehabilitation of torture, the rehabilitation of Stazi-like spying on citizens to make meaningful dissent and change impossible, invading and occupying or overthrowing countries without evidence and/or based on suspicions of bad intent without provable foundations, etc]. Essence of the War Against the Truth. Torture, humiliate, degrade, deprive.

4/22/07 9:45 am
Imagined relational purposes (imagined not in the sense of “I imagined“ as a verb but instead used as as an adjective)

TR Post: Little time to write for now, not the Dalai Lama post     4/27/07

TR Post  Pro-War Papers Say Bush Let Them Down, "Just wait," Bush thinks, "you'll see.      4/29/07


5/1/07 6:35 am
Joy to the world and bomb bomb bomb (GWB's kingdom come), bike ride (through city), apartment in city (dreams).

5/2/07 4:58 am
Democrats backing torture, preemptive war, worse than continuing, expanding Bush dictatorship (not that country would get a choice)

5/2/07 12:07
Others can read what I wrote and see it as I once did, something new to their thinking, a seed for thought. Some things now to me I know as trees, too many perspectives upon them, no longer as potential alone but how it has or might develop in conjunction with circumstances. This is bad enough. A nightmare would be to know what it might unleash in others thoughts and actions, what their “trees” might be, at least in regards to the world I know and understand, never the same worlds, never the same potentials. Greater in some respects, lesser in others. However, actualization is always at the expense of potential. The more (control?) is concrete or actualized, the more you are trapped by it from being or doing something else. I built a house of cards as best I could knowing it ought to be knocked down, but because of that, made it more worthy to stand than those who seek to control change and convert it into sameness.

TR Post:  The Power and the Mana: Repression Vs. Human Spirit    5/2/07

5/3/07 12:10 pm
       I have stressed many times the need for people to think in terms of 4 or more dimensions. To me, this is self-evident. Those with sight (eyesight) tend to think in terms of "things" and of this "thing world" (Universe) and "thing beings." Geometry and how "things" are constructed is key to (understanding what lies behind) this type of thinking. But the experienced world goes far beyond 3 physical dimensions. Atoms are a quintessential 4 or more dimensional “object.” Only through 4 or more dimensions can electrons “movements” through “non-space” between orbits be adequately explained other than the standard non-explanation, which may as well just call it magical. Also, the interaction between time and movement (electrons) requires multi-dimensional thinking without getting into observer/observed paradoxes. Yet consciousness trumps them all requiring many more dimensions to try to explain what it is and how it functions, defying time, even at times causation. It seems unlikely that humanity will ever be able to explain all of the implications of this and better understand what Universe we inhabit and how it functions while all of science is ultimately subordinated and subservient to the military for “strategic” advantages, especially in trying to understand the mind, for such studies and insights are always joined hand in hand with how to control it. Our aggressive nature and incapacity to pursue a global means to eliminate such mechanisms for controlling thought and progress, seemingly dooms us from finding definite answers about ourselves, our minds, and our worlds, and keeps those professing the most ignorant, ideologically-based close-minded approaches firmly in power, seemingly indefinitely.It is no accident ideologues seek to control and harness the military, for it alone has the means to suppress proving them wrong by eliminating research, suppressing facts, and vanishing or breaking or silencing proponents of alternative types of thinking or means of lessening the ever-growing “restraint” of the thinking processes of “free” men and women.

Post:(The above paragraph was also posted to my Jareddubois.com blog the same day as...) Atoms, consciousness, and military control    5/3/07

Post: The best failure I can be- Beyond words there are shapes hinting at what can't be said outright     5/15/07

Post: Not down and out yet, and the perils of mile high blogging    5/16/07

TR Post: Fearlessness, Courage, Weakness and Strength    5/17/07
TR Post: Flashing the Future Institutionally: Part 1, Aqua-Ban     5/21/07

TR Post: Torturing Color Coded Terror Mice     5/23/07

5/23/07 7:47 am
Corporations as private governments with private police forces and private intelligence services and now private armies if/when necessary. The government ones are merely training ground for more lucrative “private” ones which require (the) influence of it (government) to keep these private ones legal and in control (the means of which by) through “after government (service)” job offers. What was considered “decentralization” (now instead) through growth and mergers has led to mini-economic dictatorships (within nations borders) with their own laws, ability to write nations laws, and above all else, to keep every nation, especially the “most powerful one”, crippled from developing an economic plan of international scope to regulate them. Eventually all “legitimate” governments risk obsolescence as they are too much grounded to have to operate in the open. When (corporate “governments” or entities) are linked to intelligence agencies, they truly are untouchable and everything they do is unquestionable and every criminal act of business, trafficking, or murder is “legal.”

TR Post: Empire Needs Redefinition & Transmutation, Not Dangerous Collapse
             5/25/07

5/25/07 1:20 pm
Tetrahedral “rows” visible in 3D. Cube “rows” need 4th dimensional axis to visualize the “order” of the “row” added to the 3D axises we can more easily visualize and/or relate ourselves to/with
(Note added 6/4/07 3:20 am to the above while typing up the notes... This dealt with visualizing stacked tesseracts, coincidentally or not something I have just finished working out today (June 3/4). So much required, put me sleepy even after lots of coffee. Did not think it was possible to pass out with that much caffeine in me. Almost damn near comatose at times. [exaggeration but 1) it is boring to think about and can make me extremely tired,  2) it takes so much out of me to sort through it when requires  literally stretching my ability to think or many radically new concepts are needed quickly to sort or reorganize thinking, my body just shuts down, and 3) I actually understand it better when semi-conscious anyway. Thinking blurs a bit, and then new concepts needed come into focus. “Guesses” made then will usually turn out in right directions.] Worked out in last 24 hours that smallest “stack” would be 16 tesseracts (2x2x2x2) to maintain same shape with 4 of every 8 cubes on the “inside” used twice, and the other 4 the border to the “outside”. Damn near impossible to visualize since each tesseract is the equivalent of a self-enclosed 3D universe, each cube in the “stack” intermingled, and thus then thinking “outside” of all that. [Actually a bit easier with some practice to think about the edges and corners since edges and corners are less intermingled, but that's another story, still thinking “outside” of the edges and corners of intermingled stacked shapes the equivalent of intermingled 3D universes curved back on themselves, that is still a bit of outside most reference points easily imaginable and why I have put it off.] My game in 1/2 view mode of a tesseract was helpful in visualizing the “corners” of the tesseracts meeting the “outside” of curved universe edges to the “world” or “air” of a 4D “environment”. This thought on 5/25 reignited thinking which lead to restarting 2D 3D 4D 5D Thinking Made Simple on June 2nd, about a week later. The concepts would not wait. Drawings on June 3rd show these concepts visually.)

5/25/07 1:28 pm
Dodecahedral “rows”  2 axises would be out of a 3D plane which makes it damn near impossible to visualize or relate to a 3 dimensional viewpoint or way of looking at things / seeing.

5/25/07 1:31 pm
In 2d, only triangle and square apply (stacking to recreate same shape). In 3D if dodecahedral “rows”  are impossible without a 4th dimension,  relates to pentagonal “rows”  (in a dodecahedron) impossible without a 3D curvature. With 4D curvature, dodecahedrons fit together snug and perfect.

Post: Outsiders Looking In, Sarkocrats, Russian Arks, and my Ark    5/31/07

TR Post:No Mercy: The Cheney Bush War Generation Graduates     6

Post: The Second Coming Outside of Causality: Book 2 Commences (For the Usual Fee Plus Expenses)      6/2/07

6/3/07 4:30 am
I can and do feel just in thinking I almost owe nothing to anyone anymore. More than most, I have been robbed of context, not knowing the Universe I inhabit in a fundamental way. I can know of countless others lives, why they might think me among the best or worst, know the value systems they will be raised in to think such ways, yet which ultimately are applicable even by such standards I do not agree with, I cannot even say. I can say I believe to be robbed of information vital to perspective on ones own life, forced to search through others lives for it forever inconclusively, this is bad enough when done through fate and happenstance (and it usually is done by definition). But when it is on purpose, when it is how others have consciously decided how it should or must be, you owe them nothing. By my religious beliefs, I can know of the idea that such a void or blockage, obstruction of knowledge or perspective, I share in (responsibility for) or ultimately is my own creation, and obviously any desire that life should be or should treat me any other way by definition would have to be my own perspective, but it matters not to the reality of the fact that my use to others (all others) is dependent upon keeping me down as much as those who keep people from being able to feed themselves to get them to labor for them or otherwise please them, or suffer or die because they cannot find a way to do either. This is to an extent my world, my creation, but not one I feel obligated to. I harmed myself I admit by giving others the power to disappoint me by making what I need to know, or believe I need to know,  something hard do reach, out of bounds, that others could use (give) or deny, that is my hand in this. Maybe somehow I chose a lack of context as my context, but others have yet to surpass my expectations and I doubt I can lower them much further.

6/3/07 4:52 am
Life is ultimately something done to yourself by yourself. Once the longing is over, the absence is filled, the feeling of incompleteness is at an end, so is what you need it for or need from it. Joy is found in small attainable goals. Too full realizations bring affinities to things beyond your life and sometimes beyond use for it. Try to find the good in what comes your way everyday, and when there is no good in it, try to make it better. There is ultimately nothing to lose in the attempt, for attempts are all that you are. You are only what you do, not what you perceive.